trust someone completely and find they were worth it

I’ve had this wonderful friend for years and we really had something special. And I completely opened up to him, and unfortunately fell in love with him, too. “Unfortunately” because it’s one-sided.

But now he’s hooked up with someone and I’m devastated. Enough that I can’t handle the friendship as it is and decided to end it. Hardest. Decision. Ever.

I won’t mark this off and say that it wasn’t worth it, because the connection we had was just a beautiful thing. But right now, damn… this is what pure agony feels like.

I was betrayed by my family in a major way when I was 8 years old. I find it very hard to trust people. I’m always expecting people to betray me.

But never trusting anyone is a lonely place to be. I want to trust, but I need to pick the right people. I have some changes to make…