I’ve made a very unsettling discovery… I am a spaz. If things don’t go my way and oh so smoothly, I seem to have a fit, every single time. And everyone else sits back and chuckles at me and tells me that everything will be fine, until I do it so much that they get irritated with me and either yell at me or give up and go away.
I realized it because of this whole school thing… I started the enrollment process really late, thought it would be OK, saw the list of things I had to do and panicked. Immediately I started rattling off to my boyfriend all of the things that could go wrong… what if they wanted my tuition up front? What if I couldn’t get my transcript in time? What if I couldn’t get in for orientation before the registration date? What if the classes I wanted were full? What if I couldn’t afford my books when I needed them? What if I did poorly on the placement tests?????
I think he thought it was a little funny… he just told me to take a deep breath and calm down, that everything would be fine.
And then it was fine.
And I felt like a hyperactive freak.
I really need to learn to take a step back, look at things objectively and let them happen the way they should…. without spazzing about details. I don’t have the slightest idea where to start, though…
