Have a totally different life by this time next year

So .. I do have a “totally different” life since i made the first post, however, I should have added … “have a totally different BETTER life” ... My life is always changing , and when i hope it’s for the better, life kicks me in the ass or whatever and i fall 3 steps behind … I don’t know why life is so hard or how to change it …but i can’t seem to catch a break and live normal and free and happy … So maybe by this time in the next 5 years , things will be better and different … and i’ll be happy … hopefully

Ya know i don’t know when i actually made this goal to begin with, but i do know it’s been atleast/about 4 months and with all things in my life I do know my life is a little different, even from then. My life always changes and things happen to me (good or bad) and i learn (attempt) to deal with them, accept them and try to move on. I recently found dusted off my journal (diary) that i started when i was pregnant with my son (Sept ‘03) and i was Not suprised at how i was then (by my writing and thoughts) and how i still am today. Maybe it’s the person i’m suppose to be, or maybe it’s the person i’m suppose to change, but all i know is it’s me and tho alot of what i wrote (back then) was when i was dealing with a very emotional and unstabel time in my life. I’m still dealing with some of those things, but alot of it is under control and in good progress if getting better. So i think i want to add that i want to have a totally different (new and improved) life by this time next year … can i do it (To quote Bob the Builder ….Yes I can !!! )