get my life in order

Ok i raved and ranted earlier about the state and all the mess i’m in, but If i didn’t need the assistance in the first place, i wouldn’t even care, but i do tend to stress out TOO much when bad things happen, because bad things only seem to happen all the time, it’s a Cycle, I’d love to get out of !!! But in time, due time, i know. Time may change you, but , you can’t change time. So i got a job (yeah) and i’ll get a schedule and i’ll call to get here soon and all will back on track to OK ! and i want to stay that way so that someday i won’t need the state and i’ll do things all on my own … So i’m starting with the basics and i know i tend to think or move to fast and don’t slow down to consider the opstical and it’s consequences, tho I need to start. My life feels good right now, for the most part, a few things need to be tweaked and then all will be good, i hope. So today was a not so good day and they happen alot, but however i hope to have a year where there are few and far between days like these ….

Ok, whose the Moron who invented that phrase. Life is L O N G and Never, never has a Dull moment. I’m so depressed and each day, atleast this week has gotten worse for me. I can’t even begin to explain all the things going wrong and the things that just continue to pile up. I want my life to go back to “normal” and be happy and …. just stop all the drama.