be a good parent

Well, what do you know, but the eldest daughter got herself a place in Uni, against all the odds. I’m so glad she has that opportunity. I’m not so pleased that she seems to be rather ‘casual’ about the whole process, but God is good, and I pray about it all.

And the main thing is – she got a chance to go to Uni, which is more than her parents ever did.

It’s so hard to see my eldest daughter throw away her chances of soemthing better. Even last October – when it felt like it was already too late, she was told that with a fairly minimum effort, she could get the required results for entry into an interesting University course. But she didn’t put in the minimum effort. Now it’s March, less than three months before her final school exams, and it’s very sad, to see her opportunities slipping away.

I pray daily that she will find something that’s good for her.

and thank God, there isn’t another one, on the way…see my entry in the ‘long thread’ about wanting to help a friend be happy again…..

That thread’s become a kind of diary.

But at the moment, this goal is rather ironic.

I’m leaving it in the hands of God. It’s all I can do!

Bit nervous, though….eeek

I think I’ve improved a bit – well, it was badly needed, wasn’t it? The self-pitying previous entry is an embarrassment. I was hurting a lot then, but of course, it’s up to the parent to provide love and stability, no matter how the children are.

Why bother? They don’t give a crap about me.

What sort of a job am I making of this parenting thing? Having teenagers is a challenge.

I wish I was a lot better at it.