overcome depression

2008 was the worst. I ended up going up to the hospital and spending a few days there. I want things to change, but it seems that I haven’t set myself up to make the commitment to take care of myself. I’m in college and smoking and drinking are a large part of the social life and I end up participating even though I know it messes with my medication and my emotional health. I need to take a stand somewhere to love myself and not give in to peer pressure. Most importantly I need to remember that drugs can help me escape my problems. I guess it’s up to me to know much longer my depression will continue….

I hate the ups and downs. It doesn’t take much to knock me back. I would kill for an ounce of stability anywhere in my life, just so when times are hard I can fall back on something.

Everyday I try to find/do one thing that makes me smile, no strings attached. I realize that I may not be able to totally overcome depression, but I know life can be better.

I started working on my depression and anxiety, and I’m still struggling. I can’t tell if it’s getting better or worse. I try to be positive, take the meds, stay active and involved, but most of the time I just want to stay in bed all day.