get married

When it rains it pours

So, if I’m ever going to get married I need to learn how to actually hold a conversation with a guy I don’t know. I have lot’s of guy friends. Two of my best friends are of the male persausion….and I have no problems holding long, deep, progressive conversations with them. I have no flirting abilities… i mean I can flirt if it’s safe and I know the person.

Anyway, this is my example. I worked two super big 14 and half hour shifts this weekend at a conference which I organised for work. Last night this guy caught my eye, and dare I say I caught his. On several occassion we had prolonged eye contact. I just seemed to notice him and it was quite exciting.

Later that night I was waitressing and we kind of bumped into each other. Now- a peice of background information useful to this story- I’ve been limping for a week as I sprained my knee at soccer. Mystery man said to me upon our collision…”hurt your knee playing soccer hey?” to which I dronned “Yeah…” somewhat akwardly…almost nerdily. He then said “Evil sport”...to which I echoed my former reply “Yeah…”. That was it. He obviously sourced some information on me and the best I could muster was “YEAH”.

I think as I get older I add more qualities to the desirables I want in a future partner. You think it would be the other way around…that as years go by you get less selective.

Over recent weeks I’ve decided that I like guys who embody humility. Who almost underate themself…not in a low self esteem way…but who are free from self selling thier talents. I mean I don’t disqualify on grounds of competitiveness (being that way myself), but there is something lovely about someone who has talent and quitely displays it appropriately.

I feel so single…like it’s in my DNA. I’m not sure that this goal will really ever happen, I can’t even imagine being married. It’s just nice and somewhat comforting to have it as a goal.