compile a 100-things-about-me list

79. One of my biggest purchases I have ever made was Mac. When it crashed not even two years later I changed my mind about the price. Though Macs are amazing, sometimes you can settle for less.

80. I am kind of afraid of driving, or rather what could happen while driving. Likely cause my mom’s ass of a boyfriend would drive us all home drunk and high speeding down the highways in the countryside. It scared me, and I always thought we wouldn’t make it home alive.

81. I am finally being to like Florida. I noticed some things that were similar to home in the nature. I also have come to love those trees that have the mossy stuff hanging down.

82. Butterflies, especially the yellows here remind me of the magical times of my childhood.

83. I love fake diamond and pearl studs. I feel much more put together when I wear them.

84. I love wearing lipstick at home, though it makes me self concious when I wear it out. I don’t mind having my eyes done up dramatically though.

85. I love retro hairstyles and have been slow learning how to do them with a modern flare. Again this makes me feel put together and feminine.

86. I usually think I was born in the wrong era clothes and fashion wise. I love watching Old Hollywood movies, it was truely the golden age and very glam!

87. As much as I try to avoid relationship because I can’t maintain one right now due to travel, it is something I long for, and am ready for. Though, I totally think 22 is too young for me to be considering marriage in my near future.

88. Since I dropped a dress size since I started this and it makes me feel a lot better then myself.

89. I think I need to work on my self-esteem. Maybe I already mentioned this, but I think its time to make it priority.

90. I also mentioned that I gave up art. I have now began to slowly bring it back. At the very least, I allow my mind to look and wonder with its artistic eye more often, and I often make references in my head of paintings I use to adore. It makes me feel alive when I do. It will take some time to fully let this part of myself out again, but it is who I really am.

91. I am working on accepting the real me, and am making life goals around that. Its hard, after trying to do what everyone expected of me for so long, but its for the best.

92. After watching a Christmas Carol, I realized two things. 1) I need to smile more even if I am mainly by myself and 2) I really should make volunteering a priority in my life again once I live in Toronto. You know, considering I believe we should help other in need, I should practise what I preech more often!

93. Keeps bying the next book in the House of Night Series, it is getting kind of corny and I always say I wouldn’t by the next one but you know…it happens.

94. I am interested in learning more about North American Native traditions/religion/ mythology, but I haven’t got around to it. I really should. I admire their care and respect for Mother Earth, as I value that myself.

95. I really hate doing lunges. But I know its one of the best exercises for my legs, so I comprise and do one or two sets instead of 3 like with every other exercise.

96. I don’t like my feet, I think they are slightly too big, and look horrible without a pedicure.

97. Is surprised how hard it has been to find 100 things about me…an am hoping I haven’t repeated myself too many times. I thought I would be able to list a million things, that is until I didn’t want it to be filled with pointless stuff that was obvious to me.

98. I sleep with my pentacle necklace at night. When I don’t I often get bad dreams and feel like with it the God and Goddess are protecting me, and keeping me safe while I sleep.

99. I am about to try and learn new and deeper forms of meditation and I am excited, but am unsure if I can reach that level.

100. Believe that hot water with lemon or lime is a miracle food for my body (mainly my digestive system..if I drink it in the morning I have less problems during the day then when I started this.)

And that means I am done. Again, it was a lot harder then I thought!

42. I hate speaking on the phone. I especially hate calling people I don’t know. I rarely answer my phone unless its a super good friend or relative. I have no idea what my problem is with that. I just really hate phones. Always have.

43. I am a major text person though so that is who my friends usually reach me. I guess because I am so use to the internet texting just reminds me of MSN. But really, I’d rather be Phone free. Bring back letters!

44. I hate insects, except butter flies, but even then I won’t let them near me.

45. I have a fear of buzzing insects. I am terrified of bees, hornets and wasps. I have never been stung before but my mother is badly allergic. I am afraid of being stung at the wrong place at the wrong time and my thoart closing up I guess.

46.I am afraid of holding babies under 10-11 months. I know it sounds odd, but it really does. Especialy since I am a nanny right now. But again, never been one to that age. It makes me really uncomfortable. Some day I will have to face my fear though..

47. I tend to be fanatical about my skin. After I broke out once I started buying all these products to keep it clear, but it only made it worse. Took me a long time to break the habbit and realize I am allergic to all these things. I gave this up two weeks ago when my Aunt just said to use shampoo and now my face is almost 100% clear again.

48. My favorite shows are the Xfiles and the Golden Girls.

49. I plan to settle down in New Zealand when I am older.

50. I really like making lists for everything

51. I have a lazy eye. Its rarely noticable to others, except the occasional picture or when I have been on the computer for days on end starring at a screen. It makes me really self concious, epsecially when a friend of mine calls it cute.

52. I use to pray for glasses when I was entering highschool. I saw those thick frame glasses in a magazine and thought they looked really cool. A year later I got glasses. I liked them for the first few years but now I dispise them. Especially since most vendors are making them smaller and smaller and I have a long face. Well, its not that long, but they look really dorky. Last time I could only find a Prada pair that were big enough around the eyes, and it cost me 700$, with frames and a 125$ discount…pathetic.

53. I use to drink a lot of products with sweetners to save calories and because of the fact sugar is bad for you. I always knew aspartame wasn’t great either, and thought Splenda was a great alternative to that. That is until I read about them and their negative side effects. So, two weeks ago I cut them out and now they kind of gross me out. So sugar is it if I must… until I find that sweetening herb (blanking out on its name, I have it written down somewhere).

54. I really would like to go to China and Japan someday.

55. I use to want to be a fashion photographer until I was told I’d get no where and I would probably be a joke in the scene cause I don’t look anything like a fashion person.

56. Same with art. My Aunt told me I was wasting my time trying to make an art portfolio when I wasn’t nearly as into it as her niece (yet she never saw my work and I had lots of people praise it unlike her niece who had no interest in going into art). This really crushed me, and I applied for history instead and haven’t really made art or surrounded myself with it in 5 years. I am terrifed it will bring out more regret from listening to her and I will feel kind of lost like I do now and then. I can’t even visit my old Art teacher I adored because it makes me upset and he reminds me of it and reminds me its what I should be doing.

57. One day I will be an artist again when I am ready to face my fears about it. First step..go to the AGO (which I have been avoding for 5 year though I adore it). Kind of sad..

58. I love going to museums (and art galleries though I avoid them).

59. I usually read several books at once.

60. It took me over a decade to learn not to blow all the money I earned at once

61. I have a pet peeve when people come over and over their stay. For example, if you come over for dinner at 5 and are still trying to prolong your stay to watch more movied around midnight (and past my bedtime, unless I am out) I get annoyed and struggle not to show it and remain a good host. I could never just kick them out…unless they push it way too far!

62. When I was in highschool I would wake up in the middle of the night just to watch Most-Haunted.

63. I love nutella though I always avoid buying it. When I buy it the jar doesn’t last too too long. Chocolate and Hazelnuts are too of my favorite things together! Mmmm!

64. I love stories about vampires. Well certain stories. They just tend to be dark, mysterious and romantic!

65. I am into the paranormal. I love reading stories and stuff and want to go to haunted place this year with some friends and cameras. Half these shows out there now I had ideas for way before they came out. But a 10 year old wouldn’t be allowed to create one I suspected lol. Anyway, I find it fascinating, and frightening all at once!

66. I really love cooking and eating. I sometimes think I should have culinary school to be chef eventhough I am not the best cook I know!

67. I really want to learn how to make Indian food. It is prehaps my favorite cuisine. I can never get enough of it when I am at a friends house. It is such a treat!

68. I hope to be able to speak and read Chinese some day. Partly because I like the pre-modern literature. I would love to be able to read ‘Dream of the Read Chamber’ in its original format and all the volumes. I had read the shortened version in English and it was fantastic!

69. I wish I had the elegance, poise and gift of intellegent conversation I see in older movies, and in the literature. To be accomplished as they would say.

70. The same goes with Geisha and Maiko today. Though I know their life isn’t all as glamorous as it looks, I truely admire them. And most arts forms in Japan for that matter.

71. I love the smell of sweet grass and have been searching for in around places in Toronto. I will likely have to buy in online at some point. It is quite comforting and cleansing.

72. I have an interest in herbology and the healing properties of natural things. Once day I would like to study it in more detail with my own herb garden.

73. I really wish I could delete facebook. My friends are highly opposed to the idea especially since I am out of the country for most of this year.

74. Though I am a city girl at heart, I wish that one day I would have a weekend-home in the country. It wouldn’t have to be big, but surrounded by lots of trees, and of course, the ability to have a garden :)

75. I can’t wait to have my own family, though I am really not ready yet.

76. Any black tea (except Earl Grey, I dislike it) with milk and sugar reminds me of the good times I had with my mother when I was younger. I use to get up early at 5 if I knew her boyfriend was going to be working, or sleeping and drink tea with her. It was the only moments we really had together in those unfavorable times. Life would be calm for those two hours. We didn’t say too much, but it was just the fact we had mother-daughter time. For those reasons, this drink is of great comfort when I feel alone or down.

77. I am told I have a vivid imagination.

78. I love Asian horror movies.

30. I am 5’7. For years I wanted to be taller since I stopped growing in grade 8. Soon a bunch of girls were taller then me and it didn’t seem right, especially since the Doctor told me I’d probably grow a few more inches in highschool. But now I am grateful for my height. I am not too tall and not too short. Just right :)

31. I really suck at sticking to diets. I try and try and try, but it never works. I always get fed up and then end up having a binge week and gaining back the weight I lost.

32. I am now practising focusing on whole real foods (the less its processed the better…had to get away from 100%)and treating myself once in awhile. Though it’s not really helping me loss much weight I have way more energy and my ability to focus, and concentrate well is coming back slowly.

33. I super badly allergic to cats, I can’t breate after being around on, or in a room one has been in after about 20minutes to a half hour. However, I love cats and wish I could own one.

34. I have this thing for the Northern Vegetation I grew up in. Maybe it is because I grew up walking in the park and through or past the small forest near my home. Though it can be pretty I am not a fan of Tropical vegetation.

35. I thought I was allergic to eggs for a whole year. Now I eat them regularly after that wrong diagonsis.
36. But after acccidently eating something with raw eggs in it I was fine. Turns out I was lactose-intolerent. I was drinking lots of milk for the first time then due to my aunt nagging me, though it didn’t last long (I don’t like the taste).

36. My favorite ‘love story’ I have read is Pride and Prejudice.

37. I have a tattoo of a waterlily on my back. I always debate getting another one. I love the meaning and symbolism they tend to hold.

38. I use to have eight piercings, now I just have two. My ears.

39. I tend to be very observing when I am out. Not all the time, but sometimes at the worst moments. Like on a day. I still pay attention to what they are saying but they don’t apperciate my behaviour. Even when I try to expain I am an anthropologist at heart :P

41. I hate shopping for clothes, but have me shop for make-up, or books and I am a happy camper.

1. I drink coffee almost every morning, and when I don’t I feel weird. I need to cut back as well.

2. My natural hair colour is a reddish-brown but I have been every natural looking hair colour you could be thanks to hair die. I am glad its natural now :P

3. I love to make home made soups

4. My favorite holiday is Halloween, I love to dress up.

5. My favorite season is the fall, I love seeing the leaves change colours.

6. My stample outfit in Toronto tends to be dark jeans, nice boots, a scarf, and big sunglasses. Of course I always have a purse, and usually a nice button up sweater or jacket. I love layering.

7. I am really interesting in the pre-modern history of East Asia

8. I am a Pagan, and have been since I was a child. The catholic church never felt right to me. I like duality. A God and Goddess. Worshipping nature. It has felt right to me from as long back as I can remember.

9. I am studying Wicca

10. If I don’t get around 8 hours a sleep I don’t function very well. Unless I get 3 hours. Then I somehow manage to be ok. I don’t get it.

11. I love to walk, walk and walk. Especially around Toronto as there is so much to see.

12. I hate being tanned. I like my skin to be its natural white colour. I like the look of tans on others though.

13. I love candles and incense.

14. I am getting my Bachelors of History.

15. I plan to go to Taiwan after I gradute to work.

16. I also plan to do some additional school while I am there

17. I am Irish decent and pround of it. I wish I knew more of my family history though. I only know some of the traditions, and have been creating my own with friends and family, including making Boxty!

18. My body is pretty senstive to what I eat now a days and often get stomach aches if I eat anything too processed.

19. I love to watch kid movies from when I was younger now and then. They are surely classics.

20. I love to read and buy books. I haven’t read all the books I have bought though, I have too many and am always buying more.

21. I want to have a garden some day, and a medium sized house in a smaller city or town as much as I love big cities.

22. I have already picked out the names of my future children.

23. My grammar is horrible. My spelling isn’t great either most of the time. But when I write an essay for school I tend to get 10X better at it for the duration of the essay. Maybe cause I am so spazzy.

24. I have trouble focusing on things for long periods of time, and think I may have ADD or ADHD??? I dunno what its called, but I really should get it checked out.

25. I use to be obese and have lost about 40 lbs since I finished highschool.

26. I have been stuck though at a size 12 eventhough I eat well. I really need to start exercising but I am so lazy.

27. I have a love hate relationship with jogging. I will jog for a week and then won’t for like months on end. But I love it when I do it.

28. I dream of being Atheletic one day, I am apparently not ready though.

29. I love bonfires, and everytime I visit home I demand to have one. It was one of the only good parts of my teen years and the only time everyone in the house got along perfectly.