not take life for granted

All the things people wouldn’t know if my life was over tomorrow..There are people in my life who I don’t tell enough I love them..and people in my life that don’t even know I have any type of feeling towards them..There are things that I have been too scared to do and tasks that I have been too lazy to finish. I have choosen sleep over early mornings too many times and spent too many hours watching tv and movies..I’ve spent too much money on materialistic crap instead of using it to live my life..I have done nothing to make my life my own and have instead counted on the tomorrow. There are too many people I never looked in the eye and words that should have never been spoken. I take life for granted because its the easy safe way to live and I like things that are easy and safe.

Learning to not take anything for granted is difficult when everything is pretty much given to you from an early age..I’ve yet to suffer any big heartache or gone without (knock on wood) so being able to truely appreciate the little things and realize they are on in the present is difficult for me. I haven’t had much enough taken away to grasp the concept. Mentally I tell myself that life is short, do as much as you can with it for this day but in the end, I worry about looking into the mirror tomorrow. I’m not sure where the line is of being careless and taking complete advantage of what life gives you.

This one is hard for me, I’m really one of those people that always thinks that there will be time, even though I know that it’s not guranteed..If I die tomorrow, there will be so many obvious things I haven’t done..But so much of it just seems so impossible right now.