Be uncompromisingly true to myself

I had a great date with a guy from ChristianMingle.com. We have a lot in common and we laugh a lot. I realized that I wasn’t quite sure how broken up with his last girlfriend he was. He had joined the dating website and asked me out, but then when I searched him on myspace, his myspace looked like he was in a relationship but hers didn’t. I called him out on that in an email and he put that he was “getting through the end of a relationship.” Then he changed the setting on his myspace. But other than that he’s talked like he was single. On our date he talked of her as if they were well broken up. But the wording of that e-mail of his stuck with me and I decided to be true to myself. I decided that I can’t be too careful and so even though it was challenging to be so forward and serious as to question him on it, I did. I wrote an e-mail with some specific questions. We have another date coming up and I want to make sure that I am not in any way part of something stupid. I hope that they officially broke up a couple months ago, like it seems, because I really liked him. But if their relationship is in the final stages NOW, then forget that!! Homey don’t play that!

I’m REALLY really proud of myself for going raw.

I’ve decided to move to somewhere near Seattle and pursue meditation, raw food, yoga, theater, and God. My heart told me to move back home after 5 years in Austin, back to see my nephew grow and to be there for my mom.

I am doing this by following though with some new lifestyle changes. I am going raw (food, and will be learning yoga, walking regularly, getting out more and being more into homeopathic type things and meditation.

I did this again this week when I was facing a challenge with a friend flaking out on my birthday party.

I asked several people for their advice, which is a trait of mine. I sought advice on the best way to understand my friend and after consulting three people, I found my answer.

I’ve continued with this goal by not being in relationships or even casual sexuality when I know that the guy isn’t the one for me. I don’t really understand why, but I have a pretty strong aversion to getting involved with someone that I know I won’t be with indefinately. It’s like- why invest when the ending is just going to be hurting someone?

So I’ve passed up many relationship opportunities to stay true to my conviction.

I got a puppy and a kitten who both represent self-actualization to me. In the past, whenever I visualized myself as successful, a puppy and kitten were part of the story. And even though they weren’t planned financially, I was following my heart when I got each of them.

I am really facing my issues with my weight, self-esteem, habits by going deep into the psychology of it. That is being true to myself because all my life I have wanted to be in shape.

I have been true to myself by decorating my apartment with furvor. It looks, smells, and feels like me, and even though it was an unusual amount of work for a college students rented apartment and even though I may have to paint it all back white when I move out, it is very very true to me.

Being involved in Theatre calms me. I get anxious when I sense that I’m not fulfilling my destiny and straying offpath. I feel that I’ve strayed offpath by dating the person that I am currently dating, but I’m afrain and reluctant about giving him up and also about hurting his feelings.

One thing that I have done is changing my major to musical theatre. I’m so glad that I am pursuing what I know is my dream.

I did this tonight. I stuck up for my beliefs and was genuinely me. It was hard and it cost a little something but it was my best. “When you know better, you do better”