be happy on my own..not having to rely on someone else for happiness

to reach this but now that ive learnt what ive learnt I hope I won´t ever go backwards.
I guess this is bassically learn how to be alone and enjoy it, now i think that´s the basis of any good relationship, either friend or something else and the basis of being good with oneself …

Yesterday I was thinking in my sad mood that It would be great to receive an email from that guy…that I would be so happy if that happened…Just after thinking that I told myself: what is wrong with you??? I don´t need that email to feel happy. He can or can´t write and I shouldn´t depend on that to be better or worse. I´m in my good way, at least I see when my mind is trying to trick me.

I´m finding the way to be happy on my own without needing others, yes,I more or less know what things should I do in everyday life to feel good, I know how to motivate myself, how to stay up (more or less) and not needing others help me in those things. Well, I still think I need people so much but found the way to ” ” this goal.

I remember my ex words everyday and im working on this so much; i need to be more independent and part of this is that you build your own happiness. It´s kind of hard after have been relying on others to feel happy and now thinking that it´s just you who has to find that. But i will.

someone said that you can feel alone when being surrounded by a lot of people, and it´s true. i guess you can also feel unhappy even when you have a lot of good things around you because the real happiness has to be found inside oneself.

Yes, i once relied on my boyfriend and thought that happiness what there because i was with him…but it wasnt like that. i got unhappy and made him unhappy too; he left me and told me the same as is written there, that i should learn to be happy on my on. it´s true, if you are not happy alone and with you, you´ll never be happy and of course you will never make anyone else happy either; that´s the saddest part of it. Im working on it, but now after the break up i find it so difficult to be happy at all…guess i need time, at least i want to do so.