Work on my Secret Goal

going well, specially sincei im living alone. This is part of why im so unbalanced sometimes or maybe im unbalanced because of the “problem” itself. However i keep trying by myself…i know i need some real help but still can´t go and ask for it. I will do better, i know.

doing good or bad. It´s still there, it´s not going to go away unless i ask for professional help, other ways of thinking is just lying to myself. I of course have tried and have done good for a few days or even a week but after that it comes back.

is going worse in the past weeks, i can´t do anything even if i try. It´s a big problem that has solution if i ask for help, can´t do it alone. But can´t do that first step either. Maybe im lying to myself if i try to “work on my secret goal” because i can´t work on it, i just can´t control it.