be a fashion designer

things it will take

1. hard work
2. focus
3. great sewing
4. great designs
5. confidence
6. creativeness
7. follow through
8. self love
9. knowledge
10.living for me

i got this !! but cheer me i need it.

im supposed to be in sewing class right now, but where am i? in bed writing on here. so here is my problem, i KNOW im very talented and could be successful in fashion, but im so lacking motivation. Its like I am very good at drawing, thinking outside of the box and being creative. In reality this would be an excellent major for me, and it is. But I always get discouraged when one person makes one single comment about me. For instance there is this girl in my class, everytime I am late she has to make a comment and she is so freaking loud! I honestly didnt have a problem with coming late or anything but shes the one who makes it a big deal. Its stuff like that that worries me, as stupid as it is. I just wonder when will I have my breakthrough? When will come the day when Im not scared of what people think anymore…I feel like this is a wrong time and place situation. I almost feel like I need to go somewhere like New York in order to get my creative juices flowing. I dont know though, I traveled a lot when I was younger so now that I came to college and have to be stationary its super hard for me and I feel like the people I meet and the people that are my friends just dont understand my visions or where I am coming from. No one here dresses unique, I rarely see anyone just doing something different which in turn makes me dress very plain and I always feel so boring and drab. I hate that! I feel like even if I had one friend who was a little more out there like me dressing would be a lot of fun and I could be myself. Do I sound absolutely crazy? Maybe I should have a different view on all of this. Maybe because no one dresses like m it is telling me that I am unique and I need to use my ability to stand out to produce things people have never seen before. I shouldnt feel like I have to hide who I am, I know that, but more oten than not, I just go with the flow of the crowd. I been doin that since high school/middle school, and I know that its time to stop and just accept who I am. I feel just so sensitive. Even if I go shopping with a friend and they say what in the world thats hideous and I pick it up and say I think it looks cool I may not buy it because of what they think. But I guess if everyone thought like me I would not be myself I need to embrace it and realize that really, God only made one of me and put me on this Earth to share my gifts with others. I should block out all the negativity and believe that I was meant to be successful and should push myself to expect the best FOR MYSELF and not anyone else. Why shouldnt I make the most out of the talent I was given? not everyone has it