be in love

Some of that light I couldnt see is now flickering in.
I met a guy..
younger..as usual..They always tend to be younger than me.
But this time only a year and a half..not bad at all.

Hes made every boy ive ever liked..a BOY.
He makes me smile and feel like theres a reason to wake up
He brings out the best in me and every time I see his face, smile, text, anything..it makes any day brilliant!
I could, No I can..I can see myself falling so in love with him that I would never have to breathe again.

We havent expressed our feelings to eachother just yet but I can tell how they are.
Equal.

I was in love once.
Not true love but a form of love itself.
Things went wrong in our relationship and so I ended it.
2 years it seemed went down the drain and looking back I honestly dont know why I wasted my time. Good memories. but I could of lived without it.
I want to find love, I want to fall so deeply in it that my head continuelly spins.
All of my friends are engaged, dating, etc. I simply..am not.
I recently though,have been getting asked on dates like crazy, but i barely know these people or even met them..its awkward for me.
One guy though, I met is a total sweetheart, I do like him. BUT hes nearly 3 years younger than me…Im 19 and although that still seems young, I have always hoped I would have someone to spend my time with by now. But a 16 year old!? That seems too young. I barely thought he was younger than 19 when we first met, hes 6’2” and more mature than any 19 year old I could meet. Thats whats allowing my heart to not feel weird about liking him.
He even said he felt it was a small issue but once we offically met, age ment nothing to him.
I guess I can see what will happen there but..love..that doesnt seem real in this case. I dont know, my head is so burried under the ground I cant see any light shimmering towards me.
Any advice?