i really let my emotions fly when it comes to writing, especially poems. i have a list of things i want to put in it, i just have to figure out a way to pull it all together and make it sounds good and meaningful.. it makes me feel better about myself when i put it into a poem, which is something truly beautiful that someone can read and hopefully relate to. here is a piece of work i wrote 7 years ago:
to you
i thought i might sit down and write to you
about how i’m feeling, how i am so blue.
i have a lot of free time now that you’re not around
what happened to the love i once thought i found?
you’re with some other girl now, i know i can see
but why would you do that and not tell me?
you’re leading me on like everything is fine
you’ve stolen my heart and i want back what’s mine.
what have i done to deserve all of this?
what we had together, i know you won’t miss.
you used to make me feel so beautiful, so sweet
like my life couldn’t get better, it couldn’t be beat.
but now all i feel is unhappiness and pain
i guess i could thank you for the strength i have gained.
you showed me a new world, but you took it away
i’m hoping and praying you’ll come back someday.
no, i don’t hope that, you’ll hurt me again
once more my heart will be left to mend.
now you have hurt me, it’s over and done
why did you once tell me i was “the one”?
you’re still hurting me now, why can’t you see?
that i know that you will break up with me.
my heart has been stomped on and flushed down the drain
i can’t take any of this, i’m going insane.
my vision is blurry, my mind is hazy
you think i’m some bitch and yes, i’m crazy
i’m crazy for caring and loving so much
why did i believe you loved me such?
knowing you don’t love me, if you knew, it kills
you can’t expect me to sit home and not take pills.
these pills help me keep my mind off of you
maybe i’ll get over you and find someone new.
i never knew you could hurt me so bad
i thought we were in love, i’d never be sad.
i’ll say it again, it’s over and done
i’ll let you believe this game you’ve won.
you’ve succeeded in stealing and breaking my heart
you’ll never think of me once we’re apart.
i wish i could explain exactly how i feel
but when it comes to you, my feelings aren’t real.
it wasn’t supposed to end up this way
i’m now concentrating on making it through the day.
so tell me what i’m supposed to do?
knowing you’ll leave me for someone new.
i’m sure she’s really pretty and she’s taking my place
soon you’ll block me out and only remember her face.
you say you’re moving to georgia, so why don’t you go?
and forget all the love i have tried to show.
forget that i was once a part of your life
forget that you promised me i’d be your wife.
you’re just another man who can’t commit
i’m sick of all this, i’m sick of your shit.
i’m scared to give you this poem, i know you won’t care
that you’ve brought me down and left me there.
but now i’m waiting on it all to be through
waiting on the words “i don’t love you”.
but now i must go, i cannot stay
i’ll always wonder if this has touched you in any way.
from me
