Be on time

Well being on time didn’t work out very well for the last couple of weeks but I will have to be on time for teh exams so I am marking this as accomplised. I am quite good at being on time when I am going out with my friends and such.

Completely failed being on time last week.

Try again this week.

I am back to normal school, have around 5 weeks to Easter Holidays. I’m discounting this week as I was only in two days due to sickness and blood tests!

So being on time starts on Monday.

Well the week of exams is going okay I missed one because I wasn’t feeling great. but mostly I’ve been on time.

I realised on wednesday when I was on time exactly how much stress I feel when I am late. I had sucha better day on wednesday.

Monday…9.05 by the swipe clock however I was in class before the teacher so I class that as on time. :)

Tuesday…I was out Tuesday morning so tuesday didnt count.

Wednesday…9.01 by the swipe clock so perfectly on time :)

Thursday…9.10 by the swipe clock so realy pissed that I had let him down considering I had him first however he didn’t notice me come in late and congradulated me for my efforts…I would let him give the praise that easily…

Friday…I was out sick so I missed out on our next talk which is sad :(

Don’t know how I am going to get through all the exams next week…

This conversaton occured about two months ago.

The man I respect the most, a teacher, told me this. He told me to fight, fight to wake up, fight for myself.

I have been late a ridiclous amount of mornings including every one this week. So he suggested dentention and all I said was Yeah ok because I had suspected I’d get one. And then he turned to me and in a outburst said “No. You don’t just say yeah ok. Don’t accept it. Your soft Jen. Fight for yourself, fight to wake up!

And then today this occured.

The conversation was with the same man. He was talking about me being late and said he knew he had been kind of nodding and winking and overlooking my puncuality recently. There were several things he was saying but it came down him asking me to do something for him. In his words; I’m going to start puttng a bit of pressure on you. Do something for me, and it’s not detention, I’m not going to go that road but I want you to be in on time for the next week. I’m telling you now so you have from friday and saturday sunday to get yourself and mind phsyched. Because if you go to bed already thinking your going to be late that morning you will be. You’ve already lost the battle, that’s why I’m saying in class to not say I can’t or I’m not able to because it’s negative thinking. So go to bed pshyched to get up the next morning. And on Monday night say okay I’m going to be on time on Tuesday morning. And on Tuesday night say ok I’m going to be on time on Wednesday morning. And on Wednesday night say I’m going to be on time Thursday morning. And we’ll meet again after this class on Friday and have this talk. :)

This man is both my language teacher and vice principle and I don’t think I have ever met a man so amazing as him. I respect him so much I know I will never meet someone so instantly cool!

So I will do it for him. All this week.

Back to school on Wednesday and I will be on time! Even if my sleep schedule is fucked and I only get two hours sleep. I will be on time for Maths! Only three and a half weeks, two week of exams and I’m off again! I can do this.

Lol All my friends recently cheered and clapped because I arrived to the cinema on time.

I am getting better at this. I have gone from being 20 or 30 minutes late to just a couple so hopefully I can bring it back to where I am 10 minutes early!