Go to therapy

Oh great, I finally talked to my doctor, who seems to be different from other people’s doctors: She doesn’t want to give a list of recommendations, but sends me to off to an institute here which has a psychoanalytical ambulance. They’re supposed to diagnose and place patients/recommend therapists. Only I know that my friend went there and was told “we only do Freud. If it’s not analysis but therapy you want, go somewhere else”. Nice! Find it a bit frustrating, but will not be stopped by this. I’ll call after the Easter weekend.

I’ve been wanting to do this for years, but mostly took baby steps towards this goal: I talked to my doctor once, discussed it with my friends many, many times, did research on the internet, and I even went to my university’s psychological counseling office once in order to find out about the necessary bureaucratic steps. However, this appointment wasn’t exactly helpful: I was very assertive about wanting behavioural therapy and the counsellor – my impression – “fell for it”. I did such a good job of explaining my motives… However, when I exited the room, I felt that I had somehow manipulated him, for do I really know for sure that behavioural therapy works best for me? Shouldn’t he have helped me to find out whether I’m better off with analytical psychotherapy, rather than simply agreeing with me? Maybe I should go back there, see another counsellor. But I think I’ll talk to my doctor first. Soon.