show the love of my life how much I love him

Well the last time I wrote we were in a bit of a rough spot. Things got better, things got worse. So we aren’t together anymore. He’s been very depressed and overwhelmed with school and work. We decided to take a break so he could get himself back to center. For the six years we’ve known each other we’ve taken several breaks… actually it’s really been friendship with an occasional romantic encounter. I do love him and I didn’t fight this time apart because, well I don’t know, sometimes you just need to be alone for a while…

I am very lost.

Sometimes I get stuck in the mud with this because every so often he just says things he intends to do for me (which always gets me excited) and then never follows through with it. I know I shouldn’t expect him to do things but love in action reinforces a relationship. I make him things to show him that I’m thinking about him and to let him know that he inspires me. It isn’t that I am trying to buy his love.

This is the project that I was working on and he loved it!!! I’m really proud of it too. This took about 60 hours of work to complete.

So one of my final projects is a gift for him. I finished it just in time for our anniversary- not really planned as a gift for that but hey I got lucky with the dates. I’m not completely done with it I still have to fit a few areas to him but that’s just the harness/belt thingy which is practically no work at all. I’m especially happy because this means I am pretty much done with my jewelry final!!! I’m pretty proud of it. I’ll post pictures after I show him.

We have our tough times but we get through them… we keep on truckin’. Our own insecurities lend a hand to times of trouble and this is why I feel that I need to always show him how much I love him. I don’t need to, I want to. Small gestures everyday will reinforce this. I want to keep our relationship strong, open, and fun. We are pretty good when it comes to talking things out – so that is a must to keep around. I am a very solitary person, he can also be that way at times so being open is difficult but we eventually get things out. And Fun! Well, this is where I especially like to show him how much I love him by making little things like art or poetry with a twinge of our sense of humor… to a love note with some type of amusing/obnoxious pick-up line. Right now I’m working on another secret gift (see small small small book of poetry and secret birthday gift as previous secret things for him). I have been planning this one for months at least the beginning of the semester. I had the idea for a while and then just my luck! For my jewelry final we received an open ended project! This one is defiantly going to be good because well, first it is my grade and secondly it is just hilarious. There’s nothing like sharing a laugh with him.