stop being negative

I am trying really hard. I mean i have cut down on complaining and whining about work. I have tried to stop letting traffic bother me, and i am taking everyday as a new opportunity to be a better me. With that said i am still kinda bummed. The love of my life thus far just moved 3000 miles away for work and i dont know how to not feel sad. I mean sadness is going to happen, but im a trying to see the silver lining and that is next to impossible. For now i guess focus on the positive and eventually things will stop being negative…at least i hope.

I am having a hard time right now staying positive. My work is really stressing me out, my loves of this moment are persuing dreams around the world, and i am about to embark on a journey of a lifetime with my best friend who seems less than enthusiastic. I am trying so hard to stay positive and i think that on the outside i seem positive, but deep down i am doubtful and scared. Who new that something so vague and simple could be so challenging.