Work on Quitting Smoking!

Back on this goal. Today I am on my ninth day of smoke free living. It’s been really hard trying to quit this time. I just decided pretty randomly that last Wed. when I woke up I wouldn’t have one and have just kept going. I had some bad physical withdrawls this time…especially headaches, but that has seemed to pass. Now it’s more mental than anything. I have been really tested this past week though by going out with smoker friends to bars and such. Many times I felt I was going to cave in, but I haven’t yet. I keep waiting for when I will. Last week I was mentally not positive about the whole go at quitting. But since I’ve been able to go a week I’m finding that I really enjoy this inner strength in me I didn’t know I had. That is what is keeping me going and it’s almost like that feeling of “I keep waiting” is being replaced by “you can do this”.

Unfortunately, I have picked it up again. Pretty dissappointed about it. Have been going through alot of stressful decision making in the past couple of months. I seriously need to get back on track with this goal, but can’t seem to stop. :(

This is not going so well lately. I have been smoking more when I drink and have bought a few packs here and there. I seem to drink a beer just so I can allow myself to have a cigarrette. The good thing is that I haven’t picked it back up again on a regular basis, but it is still reeking havoc on my body!

Well…I feel like I have pretty much quit. I have been smoking some when a drink, but that is it. I don’t buy them anymore and I don’t have cravings anymore. I can go without them and be fine. I have finally broken the habit. Now I just need to stop bumming them when I drink.

Still doing okay…It’s been over a month. I have had a few puffs and unfortunately 2 cigarettes…however, I was intoxicated at the time. I am very proud of myself with this endeaver so far!

It’s been 2 weeks now since the Superbowl. Two weeks since my last real cig. I did go out Friday and Sat. night for some drinks and I sort of caved in. I had a few puffs of friend’s cigarettes, but I did not smoke a whole cigarette on my own. 2 puffs Friday night (one not a full inhale) and 3 puffs last night. Not too enjoyable if I say so myself. They were not what I would normally smoke though. I know I was trying for NO Smoking…but this is good for me at this point.

Still doing good with no cigs…but it has only been 9 days. Today was so bad though…cravings constantly! A friend of mine wanted me to go have some drinks with him (he is a chain smoker and esp. when he drinks), but I had to opt against it because I would be tempted. It sucks cause I wanted to go and I want to smoke, but I would totally let myself down if I have one. I guess I am half and half on wanting to quit and wanting to just keep smoking because I enjoy it so much. I wonder if it is okay to just have one from time to time? I don’t think it works like that though. I miss it!! I actually miss the smell too… I can’t get visuals out of my head of myself smoking. I will just keep at it….I just know how much I need to do this. My grandfather passed away from lung cancer in his late 40’s! I am almost 30.

So..I didn’t want to title it Quit Smoking, so I totally psych myself into feeling like I have to do it. I am just going to try right now and see how it goes. I actually have surprised myself. I have been sick for the past week, and have not had one since Super Bowl Sunday night. Wow! that is HUGE for me! I am on day six. It is sooo hard. I have been a smoker for 11 years now. Not as long as some, but still…I have been thinking about quitting for so long for obvious reasons, and sort of tried about a year and a half ago, but it didn’t work. So…here I am with trying it once again. It is not like I was fully ready to, especially mentally. I didn’t say to myself, “Okay, Sunday is my last day and Monday will be a fresh new start.” I just didn’t want one for about two days when I was sick and then I thought I would just see how long I could go. I guess I am trying to test myself even though I don’t totally want to quit just yet. Well…I am starting to feel better from my flu bug. I’m sure most of the nicotine is out of my system, but I have been having cravings because of the lack of behaviors associated with it…like holding one, inhaling/exhaling, etc…I have been keeping busy but it is hard not to think about it. Having just one puff. Ah…this Sucks!!!