overcome fear

Hm…I guess this is a pretty generalized goal, but I do feel that fear somehow controls my life. Not entirely though, just in certain areas such as love and risks. Also, looking at reality for what it is. I think I am afraid to do that sometimes because it won’t be what I want. I try so hard to live in the moment and usually do a good job at it, but when I stop and think about it I am not entirely. Especially with love…I keep looking at it from this unrealistic perspective that someday it will work out between us. That began about 6 years ago when I met him and it continues in this cycle. I need to go see him again and actually spend quality time….just being with him and go from there. I feel my fear to confront this is holding me back from so much more. It’s like it’s more comforting to be somewhere in between rather than totally in love or totally heartbroken. This will be an ongoing goal.