lose 100 pounds

I haven’t been in a while because I’ve been sick. Learned I have PCOS and the meds made me tired. The meds have been adjusted so now I can focus on the weight loss again. Of course, with PCOS causing the weight gain and the only real cure for PCOS is losing the weight, it is a catch 22. I changed my blog to reflect my new battle. Instead of “My Last Fat Year” it is now a PCOS journal.

Same blog address as before: http://clmanchester.blogspot.com

It is amazing how fast 9 weeks can go. I’ve been busy with work (a new project for teaching this summer) and my online students, on top of my full time teaching job.

But a medical condition can quickly put a halt to everything going on in your life and make you reflect on what is important.

Saturday night I started bleeding badly. Sunday I was on the couch all day, tired and changing out a pad every hour from the bleeding. My mother encouraged me to call the doctor. Which I did. He wanted me in the office the next day.

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Although I couldn’t finish the cleanse, I did learn some very valuable lessons during those three days.

I learned that hunger pain won’t kill me. They are uncomfortable, but if I get one it will pass.

I learned to appreciate the fact that I have so many food choices available to me! There are many people in the world who have no choices.

I learned to appreciate the nutritional value food holds. I have always had a hate/hate relationship with food. I always hated to eat because I felt like I was allowing food destroy the only body I would ever have in my whole life.

I learned that fresh food tastes REALLY good. I have been eating canned fruit and vegetables for so many years because I felt it saved me money. Honestly, I think I have cans of vegetables in my cabinet from when my husband and I first moved in together in 2003. They are mushy and bland, no wonder they are still in my cabinet!

I learned that my kids have very open minds and love carrots. They both ended up with orange rings around their mouths today from munching on carrots. They were also very eager at the health food store tonight. My younger daughter kept asking “can we make an exception?” I hate saying no to her, but I said no. Finally I said to her “If you keep making exceptions, where do you draw the line?” She stopped asking me to make exceptions.

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My vacation is pretty productive so far. I did a short cleanse, started raw eating, hung a curtain rod in my bathroom, hung up my broom rack and got back on the elliptical machine.

Too bad I haven’t gotten any of my correcting done so far. I’m blocking time to do that tomorrow morning. My oldest gets her braces on tomorrow afternoon. She’s nervous that she won’t be able to eat some of the foods on the raw diet that she already has learned to like.

Tomorrow night we’ll be going to the co-op to stock the kitchen with our must haves that we can’t get here in town, like Stevia. My oldest found a brownie recipe online that is raw and requires no baking.

I’ve been eating canned fruit for so long now that I have forgotten how good fresh food tastes. Especially pineapple! I don’t mind the morning salt water bathes, it feels cleansing on the inside.

And this morning, I broke the 240’s … I weighed in at 239.5 pounds!

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By the way, today marks a 25 pound loss from 1 year ago (not from the beginning of this blog – I lost 10 pounds before this blog started). So I started at 265 a year ago (my highest non-pregnancy weight) and this morning weighed in at 240! Hoping now that I had a couple of bm’s that I might even break 240 this week. YEAH FRUIT!

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Yesterday’s weight: 244
Today’s weight: 241.5

Good Morning!

Still little movement, I’m starting to think my body doesn’t want to let go of all the toxins.

I hated the lemonade more than the salt water bath so I thought maybe something was wrong with either me or the lemons. I had my husband go to the store and buy me some higher quality lemons.

WORLD OF DIFFERENCE!

Still not as good as real lemonade but so much better than that swill I was drinking the last couple of days. I can actually stomach this stuff. I could barely put three servings into my stomach each day, now I’m thinking I could handle my 8 glasses today.

Now if I could just have a bm, I might start to feel that lightness and freedom that everyone talks about. Maybe this backache I woke up with will go away.

On the good side; two days without a nosebleed and my headache is gone. I’ve been craving hardboiled eggs, something I rarely eat. All my cravings have been protein based. That doesn’t surprise me, because I love proteins.

We took the Raw Food Detox Quiz and I’m a 5 (the unhealthiest) and husband is a 4. My daughter poked her nose in the book this morning while we were still asleep and did the quiz to discover she is a 3. I estimate my older daughter would be a 3 or a 2.

This morning I lay in bed and tried to think about fresh fruit. I thought about juicy apples, pineapples, watermelon, grapes and kiwi mixed together in a giant bowl. I figure if I start to fantasize about the food I will be eating after the cleanse, then I will celebrate that food more. I’m trying to think about the things I can have after the cleanse, instead of the things I can’t have (like the waffles my husband is eating about 4 feet away from me right now).

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I hate the lemonade, I hate the salt water and I hate the fact that I haven’t had a bowel movement since I started this thing!

I want this junk out of my colon, I want the toxins to go away but all I do in the bathroom is pee.

I’m prepared to go raw after this cleanse, I’m thinking maybe sooner.

All that has happened to me so far is that I’m extremely tired. I’m sleeping most of the day now. No nosebleed today (I had them chronically for years), but I have a sinus headache, my jaw hurts on the right side as well as my right ear and if you can’t tell, I’m feeling pretty cranky right now.

I dreamed about boneless buffalo wings last night, that I was eating them by the pile, and all day today I can’t stop thinking about the stupid things and I just want to go to the store and buy a bag of them and warm them up and eat them up.

I switched my laxative tea from Yogi to Smooth Move, hoping to make something move. Everything I read tells me that once the bowel movements start, your headaches go away. I would love that right now!

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Last weigh in: 246
This weigh in: 244

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Did the lemonade mix today, laxative tea in the morning and tonight as well as some peppermint herbal tea. This morning I was hungry, a lot. Then around noon I started feeling fairly angry, aggressive and very horny. Now I’ve been preparing myself mentally for this for a couple of weeks now, but from everything I read there was no information on being horny. That feeling took me completely by surprise. I came home from dropping the kids off with their grandmother and told my husband “I’m in a bad mood and I’m horny.” His response was “Um, OK.”

Then I was really tired, but not like exhausted tired, more like a peaceful tired. So I laid down on the couch and fell asleep. When I woke from my nap I felt rested but I feel like I’m in a dull fog, like I had just enough to drink to get me buzzed but not enough to feel drunk.

I’m not hungry now, but I am tired. My tongue has already taken on that film I read about. When I drink the lemonade, my thigh muscles twitch. I can’t sip the stuff, I have to gulp it down all at once. I can feel the cayenne go through my body.

I haven’t evacuated today, that worries me. I figured I would evacuate something by this point. I usually have more bowel movements than this in a normal day. I will stay with this until Monday, my 10th day.

The other thing that bothers me is the heartburn I’ve been getting.

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Tomorrow is the day.

I drank my tea already tonight. I’m very nervous. I hope the lemonade tastes good. I thought about making a glass just to try it so I can see how I like it. I chickened out.

So tomorrow will be day 1 of the Master Cleanse. I’m looking forward to cleaning out my colon and getting a fresh start with my body!

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