stop masturbating

haha, been so long since I’ve been on this website. Jeez. Not been doing so well. Went to camp a little while ago. 7 days without doing it. First day back home I fell into the temptation. Now I guess I’m just trying my best to fight it. struggeling.

its gotten to the point where once the thought enters my head, its as good as done. I need to find ways of avoiding this. It just seems that once I decide I’m gonna do it, its extremly hard not too. its as if I don’t care about anything else BUT jerking off. I just need to take it one day at a time.

I’ve begun to see how masturbating is changing my perseption in other areas in my life. I feel like I actualy want the real thing more now (alot more) and I even see myself looking at girls differently than before. I feel like this has become a poison in my mind. and I need to start making radical changes in this area of my life, because I am tired of having my mind constantly filled with perverse thoughts.

I’ve been failing ALOT for a while now, but at the same time, i think I’m getting stronger… if that makes sense.
I’m making a radical change in my life right now, and this is deffinatley a part of it!

I need to get back to the reasons as to why I wanted to stop in the first place.

well, I just got back from camp, which gave me a solid start of 6 days!!! but, I’m ashamed to say that I did it as soon as I got home. I guess that didn’t get me started like I thought it would. Maybe I need to start investigating the cause of this, and the reasons I do it…

My problem is I can’t make a solid start. I’m always failing by the second day. but I have been reading my bible latley, like I said I would, and hopefully god will continue to forgive me, and help me in the days to come.

I’m also starting to read my bible. I figure that if I focus my life more on God, then the other focuses of my life will go away. (not easily of course, but hopefully with his help.)

All I can say is that I’m still trying. and thats realy all that matters at the moment. :/

This is becoming a SERIOUS problem. Im actualy kind of scared. It’s gotten to be two or three times a day!!! HOLY CRAP! I never thought I’d let it get this bad! but now I just need to stop. I need God’s help! I’d appreciate any prayer you have to offer. Thanks.