...but i dont think i’m ready, if that makes sense?
I’ve been doing it so long, but i know i can do without it, last year i went 4 months without doing it, so i know i can do it. Do I just need it for a while longer, or am i in denial? Who knows.
It just feels like if i stop now, right now, that i’ll end up giving in and feeling even worse about it. I think i need time to prepare, to ready myself so that i have a chance of stopping without feeling the need to do it again.
shrugs
