move on

I’m sure I’ll have to do it again one day…. with God’s help…

I just did what I needed to do to start the ‘moving-on’ wheels turning.
big sigh
All I can say is “ouch!” It hurt but its the right way.
Had a little help in the form of some good advice and this song…

Ray LaMontagne
All The Wild Horses

All the wild horses
All the wild horses
Tethered with tears in their eyes
May no man’s touch ever tame
May no man’s reigns ever chain you
And may no man’s weight ever defrayed your soul
And as for the clouds
Just let them roll
Roll away
Roll away
As for the clouds
Just let them roll
Roll away
Roll away

There’s so much anger/upset-fuelled adrenaline running through my body right now I think I’m gonna pass out or explode!!!

I really need to do something. I really need to take something out of my life that is stopping me from even beginning to try to move on. To move on from something that’s resulted in me feeling hurt and betrayed! I need to do this right now and I’ve been building up to it the last few days. What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I do it? I don’t even know what I’m afraid of. Anyone here studied psychology of a CallyBop? lol

sigh

... hard! As I expected. After all I suppose most people do. Keep preparing to deal with things and lay them to rest and just end up feeling that crushing chest feeling! So then just push them to some dusty corner of my brain and try to pretend they don’t bother me that much. But they do. And then they come back with full force! I’m constanting taking deep breaths here!! I must sound like a steam train! =(

... but also sick of holding on when I should move on to better things! Time to sort it out, deep breath, here we go…. =D

EVERYBODY…

“I’m movin on up now,
Gettin out of the darkness,
My light shines on,
My light shines on,
My light shines on!”