get over my heartbreak

Okay, never done this before but nothing else seems to be working so I’ll give it a try. A week and 1/2 ago the love of my life told me that he didn’t love me anymore. He did this by leaving me a message on my parents answering machine even though we lived together. Funny thing is that morning when I left for work he kissed me goodbye and told me that he loved me. When I stopped at my parents after work there was a message for me, I serioulsy thought it was a sick joke or that he was messing with me, but the jokes on me. I got him to come talk to me in person that day while I packed my things, I wanted answers. He couldn’t even look me in the eye and he cried then would get mad at me a kick me out, then he said that he didn’t love me at all, took that back and said that he loved me as a friend only. It kept going back and forth like that for about an hour until he finally left. I of course call him the next day crying like a baby begging for him to hear me out and get no response. Finally a week later I had to go get my computer and he was there so we kinda talked. He still wouldn;t look me in the eye, he says he felt guilty for leaving a message like a coward and that it is hard and weird to talk to me since we are over. Our relationship wasn’t perfect but we had been through so much and made it that I didn’t see this coming. He said he wants space, but all I want is a chance to be with him. I know that we can make it work how do I get him to see this. I can understand where he is coming from when he say’s he needs space because we were kind suffacating eachother always together but that can change especially since we both wanted it to. I don’t want to call him and be that pathetic ex who can’t get a clue but I can’t stand the thought of him with someone else. He cancelled the home phone nad got a new cell but he gave me the # what does that mean. I hate this confused feeling and I miss my best friend. Everyone says it will get better and I want to beleive that but I am positive that we could outlast them all given the chance. I know I need to give him space and hopefully he’ll miss me, but when you are with someone for 5 years you get into a routine so life is of course going to be exciting when you are hanging out with different people not having to worry about the person at home and whether they will be mad, happy, sad etc.. when you get home. This also leaves me with a small amount of hope thinking give it time and he’ll come back. What happens when he doesn’t. I know that the breakup is fresh and that I am supposedly going to feel better in time and I’m sure I will but that doesn’t mean I don’t know what I want and love which is my ex. How do you get what you want without being in their life. I am confused and heartbroken and want him back. He has his faults and so do I but together we were amazing and of course nobody sees that now all they ever say is over the phone, what an ass, hes not worth it, but he is. I can’t seem to get the hope that he will realize he made a mistake and call me if I just leave it alone, but what if he finds someone else while I’m waiting for the right time to call him. I am very confused and need any advice on this.