Learn to control my night terrors

FUCK
its 3:22 AM and i have school in 3 hours
and i wake up choking on my pillow half screaming, throwing up and seeing things. COME ON BRAIN WORK WITH ME HERE I CANT CONTINE ON ALONE IF YOUR FIGHTING ME
i swear to god this place is haunted and my roomate does as well
the things i see aren’t very clean but the one thing that keeps coming to my head is an indian girl with long braids holding SOMETHING, but the thing is, she looks not sad, but worn out? no i think that’s the wrong word, um betrayed, ALONE she’s ALONE but what does she want, and what the hell is carrying?
are ghosts real? we can’t be on the only level of plataeu of conscieness or alone in the world… we really can’t

haven’t had any later (cause i haven’t been sleeping:( )

wow, i woke up yesterday morning, and i couldn’t move cause i was so paralyzed with terror b/c i swear i could see someone watching me. so i told myself.. no no no. no one is there. no one is going to hurt you ect… and it worked, i started breathing again and my muscles started to loosen :D oh gawd, such a great feeling regaining control