have more faith

So…I watched Dogma, and now I have a HUGE renewal of faith!! Which is interesting, considering that my Catholic friends had a drop in faith after they watched it. It may be gibberish, but it was a fun, thought-provoking movie, and I loved it. Here’s to a God who really does have a sense of humor <3 "Merp!"

My man doesn’t have a job, he’s having health problems since before Christmas, I’m not being challenged enough in my classes so I’m slacking, there’s too many clearances/tests/things I need to do, and it’s hard to save money. bUt…these are just things we’re talking about here. I’ll get past/through them, Lord willing, and anyway, God is bigger than any problem I will ever have. As long as I remember He is in control, I can loosen my hold on the reins and do my best in everything. <3

so says God…and i should listen. I don’t get to see my man very much at all, and it’s really wearing on me…and things are blecky…but other things are good, and I should be happy about that. I have my family, I have my classes, I have job to pay for my car….I’ll just blame it on the weather. Praise God! I am alive!

one of my best friend’s friends died very recently, and she’s not doing so well.
some good friends of mine, who had difficulty getting pregnant, lost their baby of 7 months a couple days ago.
it’s things like these that really test my faith.
However, I had an image of a grown Skylar, standing blonde and tall and laughing in Heaven. I’m trying to hold onto that. And as my mom says, one day will all be together again. I trust and pray that this is true!!!

today I finally got baptized at the church on top of the hill. I really love that place…the people don’t judge me, they talk to me kindly and like me as far as I know. I can’t go too often b/c I have to work or some such, but I go when I can. I love the warmth, the simplicity and the strive for really understanding things. It heals me, and it’s a great thing, b/c sometimes in this world, I really, really need to be refreshed and healed. I am grateful. Praise be to God.

my faith has gone downhill…more the faith in people than mhy faith in God, however…but I recently tried going to “the church on the hill” that quite a few of my friends belong to, and I really like it. The sermons are a bit long, as is the singing after a while, but oh, I think it really is the church for me! Finally, after all these years!! Granted, I’m not going to go every week, b/c I might be working or taking a test or sick or something, but so far I’ve really liked it the times I’ve gone there. The pastor is REAL; he debates things, he talks about all different sides of problems, he is enthusiastic and the music is great! maybe later I may be like everyone else and be like, ugh, church, but as for now…I’m SO happy I’ve finally found somewhere I WANT to be!!

Thank you, Lord.

I’m getting better, though I had a period of time where I was quite a bit worse. I thank God so much for the things I have…especially my family, friends, and beloved. I really don’t know where I’d be without them, or without God, at this point! <3