connect with people

I’ve been doing rather well at this. I don’t want to count the goal done quite yet because it hasn’t been quite long enough to judge such a serious change, but I think I am succeeding at this. I have been going out with people, calling people, emailing people, and just in general sharing myself a lot more than before. I used to make it so difficult to get to know me; now I make it easy.

I’m constantly hiding away, claiming some reason why I can’t get close to people. I love talking to people online, and I think that’s because I can always turn off my computer. I can’t turn off people that are in front of my face, and this makes me uncomfortable. I can be absolutely confident here, whereas I can be superquiet and even shy in person. It’s not shyness though—it’s apathy. And so I’ve been trying to get rid of that apathy, and it’s already paying off. My goal is basically to have at least three or four people that I genuinely feel close to and will miss by the time I leave where I am in the fall.

Today, I hung out with a really cool person. I was even the one to suggest we hang out, and unlike most people, she took me up on it right away instead of just pretending to be interested (though I’m guilty of having done that too, so…) I’ll call her M. Anyway, she is really funny, smart, and just fun to be with. And there are, so far, no differences in personal philosophies that I think will get in the way of us respecting each other. I really enjoy her company.