be ok with showing emotion

I realized the other day that my emotions come out more in anger than anything. Maybe because I repress my feelings and thoughts so much. I hold things in until I’m boiling inside, and when the “one” person happens to top me off, they get the full gist of my emotions. It literally feels like I explode. This doesn’t happen very often, but when it does I’m usually under the influence of alcohol. The next day I feel so utterly miserable for letting my anger get out of control. The thing that really bothers me about this problem is that, I usually let it happen to the people that I really care about. I need to find some way to deal with this, and I know that limiting my alcohol consumption will be a huge factor for change.

I have a very hard time showing people how I feel. In fear that possibly, whom ever my not accept me for who I am. I know i’m an emotional person on the inside, but not many people have seen or will ever get to see this side of myself. I have a lot to say, a lot to express, but I have to feel completely comfortable with you in order for me to let you to come into my mind, my comfort zone, my world.
FYI- I’m a Leo…...