take control of my life

Looking out over the decisions I am making in the next year, it has occurred to me that taking control is indeed very hard. Sadly, I’m not sure my relationship with my wife is going to last. There are so many ways we are good for each other, and yet, there are so many ways that we both have become worse off than before we knew each other. In the final analysis, I think we are bad for each other. 10 years is a long time to throw away, but another 20 years wasted on top is insane. In the words of Tagome from King Arthur, “I will prepare.” just in case.

I just put an offer out there for my business. Time will tell.

I am going to sell my business or it’s assets and move on. I’m going to get a job in marketing (not sales) and actually earn a living. I am going to pay off my debts from the business, pay back the investors. I am going to take the hard lessons learned in running my business, or rather, letting my business and others run me, and actually apply them as I move forward. I’m going to clean up the various projects I have left to do (taxes, selling my van, and so on). I’m going to evaluate every decision in light of how it will affect me in the long run. Finally, I am going to simplify my life, from clutter in my house to clutter in my brain. I want to reduce my commitments and obligations so that the only ones are the ones I care about most – my family and myself. De-clutter and simplify.