is to cut ties with everyone. And start anew.
I want to move out of this town so badly. I never thought I would be one of those people – the kind that runs away from all their problems. I thank my parents’ lack in communication skills. I’m always running.
...but I never really know what I’m running from?
...I should have just answered the phone.
I wish I had.
We haven’t seen eachother in weeks…
but he’s in my dreams every night.
(and from a recent text message, I’m in his too)
I just want to stop hurting everyone, so I’ve cut all ties.
This feels so wrong
A friend that I haven’t talked to in a while has found me on here and has lended me her hand and guidance via comment on 43things. Though she said nothing harmful, her words made me cry.
I want to hug her.
I’m afraid I’ll hurt her like I hurt everyone else.
Oh my goodness, I am flipping out. It is so pathetic to me that I am turning to thousands of strangers on the Internet for guidance, but I feel I have nothing else. I haven’t really eaten in 2 days and I am falling into old habits again. I want to cut. I’m purging again. I’m out of control – and I have no one to talk to. I will break my mother’s heart and she will tighten her leash on me if I confide in her the way I would like to; and it hurts to not be completely honest with her. I am hurting people everywhere I go. I’m poisonous. I should wear a caution label on my chest. I want to lock myself in my room until this goes away – but will it ever really go away??