finish high school

Holy crap. I’m onto my last credit!! It’s supposed to be a fairly easy one too (I set it up that way so I would have a low pressure way to end high school).

Ahhhh! So excited!! :) I can’t believe I’ll be finishing my high school. It was a pretty daunting goal that always loomed over me, and I was always frustrated with myself that I wasn’t ever able to go back and complete it.

But now I am :) And I’ve been going to back to school since Jan 2012, and I’ll be finally graduating in June 2013. I’m getting great marks and really good feedback for my work. My teacher is really supportive of me and has been a major influence in me being able to stick through this to the end. I really enjoyed my last course (Philosophy), but it was the heaviest course that I’ve ever taken. It wasn’t necessarily hard, just heavy. I’d often get headaches from reading the material and trying to understand different philosopher’s writings. But I really enjoyed learning about the concepts, and my teacher was a great person to talk to about philosophy in general.

I’ll be getting my marks back for my last course either this week or next. I’m onto my very last credit, and then I just need to do 2 hours of volunteer work (I have 38 hours/40 done already)... then I’ll be ready to graduate.
This. Is. AWESOME! :)

Sweet! I just finished writing my final exam and handed in my ISU for my Challenge & Change in Society course. We’ll see how my marks are in about a week or so, I hope I did well!

I did even better in this course than I did in English… I was able to challenge it half way through by getting above an 85% on my mid-term. I was able to skip the rest of my course and go straight to my exam. I had to read and understand the material of course, but it was really nice to not be able to have to write anything!

I’m going to be starting my next course, which is Philosophy… I’m quite interested to see how I like this course! I was considering minoring in philosophy when I went to university for psychology. This high school course will help me to decide whether or not I want to continue pursuing it further. :)

Going through adult high school was difficult at first, but in a lot of ways I’m glad I’ve returned. The feeling that I get when I finish a credit really helps to motivate me to go even further and do more… it’s been awhile since I’ve felt a real sense of accomplishment! It’s work, and it can be frustrating at times, but I think it’s definitely worth it.

Fingers crossed for good marks! :D Around Christmas this time I’ll be trying to apply for a couple of universities. It scares me half to death! Being from a place where I thought that there would be a slim chance that I could ever go to school… I don’t know. I’m struggling with self-worth and confidence issues. University is kind of the big leagues, I suppose. I’m afraid of going there and feeling like I’m in way over my head, and that I’ll just embarrass myself for even trying… But. I have to remind myself that this kind of thinking is just self-destructive and doesn’t do anything good whatsoever. It’s just hard when it feels like you’re fighting against yourself sometimes… and you know that chances are, there’s not much stopping you from achieving things other than YOU.

Trying to maintain faith in myself, and just looking at what’s in front of me… I’m doing great with high school, and I’ll be extremely happy and proud of myself when I graduate… that’s all what matters right now!

SO HAPPY!! I just officially finished my Grade 12 English course and I’m registered and already started my next course :D

Got a 94% on my final exam which is worth 30%, so I’m pretty freakin happy about that! Today I just handed in my independent study that was due 2 weeks after my exam… so I’m officially done!
Next week I’m hoping to find out my final mark, fingers crossed! ;)

I’m feeling great. My Grade 12 English was the last compulsory one I had to do… now I get to do 3 more courses of my choice… and I’m doing all social sciences! Woots, I’m excited!!

Hurrays for progress!!

I just came back from writing my final exam for Grade 12 English. SO happy with myself!! I still have a 2 week independent study that I need to do, and then I’ll officially be done English! :D

Definitely proud of myself, and I’m happy that I’ve stuck through it this time and actually finished what I started. I have three other credits to do, but my English was the last compulsory credit that I needed… so it should be a little less stressful!

I can’t believe I’m doing this, but it’s awesome. I’ve set it as my personal challenge to be done by Dec 31, 2013… and I think I’m definitely going to be able to hit that mark. I’m actually hoping on graduating in the year of 2013, so in June :) We’ll see though, I’m not getting ahead of myself… just need to concentrate on what’s in front of me right now, one thing at a time. Everything seems to be working out though!

I tried this last year, and it didn’t work out so well. I enrolled in the adult high-school and lasted a month before my anxiety shot through the roof and I couldn’t handle the pressures anymore.

Two years before that, I tried enrolling in some online courses. That didn’t work out well either.

This time, I’m ready. I feel more ready than I have ever been. I’ve worked incredibly hard on myself in the past 2 years… I’ve created a stronger foundation in myself, and this time I feel confident. I know I can do this. I’m in such a different place mentally now than where I was before. I feel determined this time. I’ve also finally figured out what I want to do after high-school. I’m excited for university. I can’t wait to get on with my life and make things happen.

I enrolled back into the adult high-school on Jan 16, 2012. I’m doing pretty well in school. I received at least an 85% in my first five lessons, so I got to skip ahead and write my mid-term, which I just did last Thursday. I’m happy. Things feel like they’re right, this time. Like as if it’s the right place and the right time.

I don’t doubt myself anymore. I know it and can feel that it’s so close and so possible. It’s not a scary, near-impossible thing anymore. It’s very real, and I’m doing it. I’m getting it done, and it’s so awesome. It’s a lot of hard work, and it’s really, REALLY boring at times. But I want this so bad, I don’t care anymore.

Soon, I’ll be a graduate. And I’ll never have to think about high-school, ever again.

Well, I finally kicked myself in my girlyballs to finally restart highschool again. I am 22 years old at the moment… I had to drop out about 3 years ago because of my financial situation. It was either work to put food in my stomach, and a roof over my head, or go to school. Things were fairly unstable in my life due to family mental health problems and I had been living on my own since I was 15.
Now life is feeling a lot more balanced and stable, and I think it’s time where I can work on this goal again without having to worry about my homelife, my family, and money (not like back then, at least).

I ordered my coursework a week and a half ago through ILC.org (online/long distance education in Ontario), and just received my course package on Tuesday.

I only have 4 credits left (five if I want to redo my last credit which I got shoddy marks in before I left school). I’m working on my grade 12 university English at the moment. I have roughly 10 months to finish this course, but you can finish it at your own pace, so I might be done it sooner than that.

The only depressing thing is that I know, and knew it even before I signed up for these courses, that once Im done highschool people still won’t stop. It won’t be “When are you going to finish Highschool?”, but instead it’ll be “So… when are you going to go to College/University?”. You can NEVER please the masses.
The most important lesson I’ve learned in life is that life is not a footrace. I do not have to feel pressured to finish highschool at the same time as everybody else. Everyone has their own paths in their life and can go at their own pace, just as I will have my own as well.
I feel so much better this time around trying to finish highschool because I know that this will be on MY own terms and I won’t feel so pressured while doing my courses.

I enjoy learning, I really do. I’ve always gotten pretty good grades in almost all courses that I’ve done (except for the early years of math, and of course my dreaded chemistry courses.) When I get to it, this will be my third time attempting grade 11 chemistry. This time around though, I think I have the support and help I’ll need to get through it. My chem/bio teacher in highschool was wonderful and tried her best to help me with different learning techniques for it, but I still had such a hard time with it. It happened often when I would be frustrated to tears in that class. I just didn’t get it. Chemistry was also the breaking point of when I left school, I just couldn’t handle it anymore.
I need to get through this and be able to take and understand chemistry though. I love and am pretty good at biology (which was my favourite course in highschool), and unfortunately chem and bio tend to go hand in hand with each other.

But, at least I’m trying to get this done! We’ll see once I get to my chemistry courses again, but I hope I can stay determined enough to pull through it.