I am tired of it; this filthy, wretched, miserable, poor quality way of life that mankind has chosen. I refuse to stand with it, by it or for it. I refuse to represent it. I am tired of the normal, mundane way of life. I am tired of events like the recent Cumbria massacre in England. I am tired of the weekly suicide bombings in Pakistan. I am tired of the belligerence of Israel, North Korea and Somalia; the corruption in Turkey, India, Iran, Afghanistan and even my own country. I am tired of the oppression of women in many Islamic countries. I am tired of the so-called ‘honour killings’. I am tired of the oil disaster in the Gulf of Mexico. I am tired of hearing of the endless vehicle accidents and crashes. I am tired of the daily rapes, shootings, murders, and countless suicides. I am tired of the daily child abuse in the UK. I am tired of hearing about young children brought up in poverty-stricken countries who are forced to work all day to provide but a meagre living for their families whose parents are drug addicts. I am tired of hearing about the deep, endless suffering of persons undeserving.
I am tired in knowing that some ninety percent of the world’s population believe in an imaginary God – and the ramifications this has. I am tired of the bigotry; of the empty self-aggrandisement; of the hatred; of the pugnacity; of the quarrelling; of the shouting; of the spite and disharmony. I am tired of the mainstream fear and paranoia in regards to anything aberrant and, what’s more, often sensible. I am tired of the mass nescience, delusion and of its stultification of intelligence. I am tired of the poor education systems all around the globe. I am tired of the lack of preparedness in safeguarding against natural disasters. I am tired of the 30,000 children dying each day from disease and malnutrition. I am tired of the famine; the one billion people going starving.
I am tired of the negativity, of the misery, of the way in which people who have life very easy, particularly in the West, complain so melodramatically about very trivial matters and still manage to make a mess of the vast opportunities bequeathed to them. I am tired of how the rich waste their riches; how so many of them remain unfulfilled and miserable and still manage to make a big mess of things despite having such grand opportunity. I am tired of hearing about lottery winners who spend their booty on drugs, £2000 handbags, hookers and holidays, sooner or later finding it has all gone, without concern for altruism or even self-improvement. I am tired of the huge waste; the inefficiencies; the nonchalant, unthinking, rapacious spending and consumption.
I am tired of the poorly ineffective problem solving abilities that are the norm in society and that most people don’t really care to make positive change in the grand scheme of things anyway. I am tired of how condescending people often are. I am tired that so many people get off on schadenfreude. I am tired of the dishonesty; the insincerity; the spurious claims; the hypocrisy. I am tired of the lack of persons admitting their own responsibilities, and rather, running away from them, often attempting to force them onto others. I am tired of hearing about the difficulty and stress of living for the typical person, with a typical life. I am tired of the lack of austerity given to criminals and for criminal offences.
I am tired of religious arrogance. I am tired of the fallacy and contradiction that religion is and how followers of said religion fail to see this and how ofttimes this thus leads to the battle ground, fighting for one’s own deluded ‘truth’.
I am tired of the way mankind has effectively run from its problems, instead of facing them head-on. I am tired of the incompetence. I am tired of being misunderstood. I am tired of my vast potential going to waste.
I am tired that there still is not world peace.
I am tired of the human condition.
Can you not see that there is something going very, very wrong here?
This is not what freedom looks like.
Thus here I find myself, amidst the debris of maelstrom, calamity and mayhem. I am angry at this way of life, what it is doing to people, and how the selfishness of mankind is affecting and degrading the quality of my own life. However, I also find myself vehemently driven… driven to change all that I must. I aspire to destroy every illusion and shatter every false image that I need to; criticise, tear apart, condemn what mankind represents and stands for and I will not stop or rest until mankind finally gets it right.
In the words of Frank Zappa:
“Nobody wants to deal with reality… because reality has gotten to be too disgusting”.
“People have given up caring about the responsibility they have to be citizens or part of a community”.
“Being honest is… very out of fashion. Nobody wants to do that anymore… ‘cause it’s easier to lie and to chisel on the side, and you’ll go further, faster if you’re a fake person”.
We could all have so much more.