be more forgiving

... sure how to forgive someone when I don’t know why I’m mad at them, but I’m so over the akwardness that this malice creates. I don’t know if that’s why our relationship is so sucky or if for completely separate reasons we just pretty much hate each other… well not hate, but whatevs. I dunno; I thought writing would sort this out, but I’m still pretty confused …

I don’t know what it is about me. I can forgive people for huge stuff, but little things just nag me and eat away at me. I hate when I can’t let go because I feel like I am letting that person exercise too much control over me, but I just can’t help it sometimes.