stop thinking about "him"

so i decide to give it another go and “predictiblely ” my x bails out on me at the last minute …soo glad i didn’t sell my things.
he was supposed to meet my family and i dont know if it is because he is too broke to afford a plane ticket and his pride wont let him admitt it or its because this next step of us moving in together and he is not that into me and does’nt want to seriously commit …all i know is i am supposed to move up florida and i hav’nt spoke to him in over a week.

it really hurts my feelings i feeel like im finally over him and he tells me the things i want to hear and im back

I AM NOT MAKING IT EASY FOR HIM TO COME BACK IN AND OUT OF MY LIFE!!!! I AM WAY DONE SERIOUSLY HE IS NOT EVEN CUTE I WAS JUST ATTRACTED TO HOW SMART HE IS AND HIS SENCE OF HUMOR

I TALKED TO HIM AND I THINK HE WAS FEELING LIKE I WAS OVER HIM AND HE TELLS ME THAT HE CANT MOVE ON AND HE SEES HIMSELF MARRIEYING ME AND ONLY BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOME ONE LIKE ME …AND IT FREAKED ME OUT BECAUSE I FEEL THE SAME I CANT FULLY BE WITH ANYONE ELSE AND THAT SUCKS ….SO WE OLANNED ON VSITING EACH OTHER IN A MONTH …STRESSED…. SO THIS IS GOOD BECAUSE WE CAN SEE WHERE WE STAND AND IF I EVEN STILL HAVE FEELNGS FOR HIM STILL …I LIKE TO HIDE BEHIND OLD FEELINGS FOR HIM SO THAT WAY I CANT ALLOW MYSELF TO BE HURT BY ANYONE ELSE AND I CAN USE HIM AS AN EXCUSE … NOW I REALLLY HAVE TO SHIT OR GET OFF THE POT …. WHICH IS NICE SO THAT WAY I CAN GET ON WITH MY LIFE ….WE BOTH CAN GET ON WITH OUR LIVES.

IT SEEMS LIKE HE IS TRYING I TALK TO HIM ALL THE TIME NOT LIKE BEFORE WHEN HE WAS OUT PLAYING HIS GAMES AND MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I WANT TO PULL MY HAIR OUT ….. I REALLY HOPE THINGS GO WELL I LOVE HIM AND HE IS WHO I ALTIMATLY WANT TO BE WITH I CANT SEE MYSELF WITH ANYONE ELSE!!

I really thought he was the one its been 3 years and i have had other boyfriends but no matter what I do i cant get over him It kills me to see that he gives other girls attention ….I hate the fact that i give him this much power over my feelings …He doesn’t acnolage me and It kills me

He doesn’t know that i still want to be with him because i have stopped acting like I care

Why let him know if he isn’t going to do anything ….I dont want him to try and tell me what I want to hear …its so unfair Im good looking and I am going to finish school in about a year and starting a career that will make good money …I dont understand it

I cant move on and it kills me

IM ACTUALLY TALKING TO TWO OTHER GUYS NOW AND ONLY GIVING HIM A SMALL PIECE OF ME….. WHEN I TALK TO HIM IT MAKES MY DAY… I GET SOO HAPPY AND NOW WE ARE ON GOOD TERMS.

iM SOO MUCH MORE HAPPYER NOW …..THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT LADIES!!

I feel addicted and I cant stop …I think im going to call him and act like I didn’t see the message he sent her and act like nothing is wrong…. Im still not eating though! The girl had no boobs and her hair was nappy!! ahhh I want to hit him with my shoe!!

We are broken up right now ….i just found out he has a friend in new York… i found a message on the internet sayin were not as far as you think ...he knows im going to see it and get jelouse …why does he act like he doesn’t care then do things purposely to piss me off? two can play at that game ..so I made a fake profile of some hott dude and had him send me flurty messages. I hurt him and he hurts me and it sucks. This is two much it makes me not want to eat!