Regain my footing

I am tempted to mark this one as done. But there is something stopping me,and I dont know what it is. I dont think I can mark it off until I figure it out, maybe its not even related to this whole foot thing, maybe I am now using it as an excuse. I really hope not, I would never want to do that. Somedays it hurts like it did this time last year, other times I forget all about it, I need to find a balance I think, and once I do this will be finished. I think.

Tomorrow may very well be my last day of physical therapy. At least for a while! Yay!!!! I Want to celebrate, but no one else really seems to want to. When I brought it up to my friends they just kind of looked at me like I was nuts. I guess its really only exciting for me…but still. I may try to do something. But I’m getting ahead of myself here, Karen (My therapist) may decided that I need more time. I’m really anxious about tomorrow, I really just want things to get back to normal, at least a bit. I probably wont sleep tonight, Its already 1:24 am, and I haven’t even yawned yet. I am totally wide awake, which I guess it good, I’ll write some letters, try to clean up my room without making too much noise, it’ll be good. Right?

p.s. There is picture of my brokeness for you. One side anyway. the other picture is too close up to see anything. The scabby part is where the bone broke off and came out.

This one has a bit of double meaning. Its about Literally regaining my footing, I broke my ankle and had surgery and the whole bit, its amazing how much something like that changes things. anyway, I’ve been having trouble with scar tissues and regaining the full motion of my ankle and walking is so hard, and i look ridiculous.
The second and much more difficult part of this is hard to explain, I guess it boils down to depression and how it comes and goes and how someday it completely shuts me down, other days I dont even think about it. People keep telling me I should find some kind of help, but I cant afford it. So I guess I’m trying it on my own, and I think the main thing is to learn that some times its okay to be sad about some things, but to not let it blend with everything else that happens that day.
I guess we’ll see.