be happy

Ima in a place where Ima no longer living – Ima just dont care at all anymore – I dont care if Ima dying and watever. Ima not happy but Ima not unhappy instead. Ima just depressed – major depressed. I have no feelingz or emotionz. Itz just me now – just trying to live one day at a time – trying being the word here…

Itz pretty hard to be happy. All my friendz have left – Ive got no one – nothing seemz to interest me – and I have money issuez.

I just cant be happy with all that issuez that I have atmz.

Sadness is in every part of my life – I cant get away from it ever – every time I try I fail – depression is basically the cause of all this – itz taking a toll on me and I cant live like this anymore – I need to get help and help now.

Im insane – not happy – just insane.

Itz confusing – I am a totally different person from when I first started this goal. However I really think I may have real depression now that started about a month ago.

I dont think I can ever be happy with this depression of mine because itz affectz the little thingz you want to enjoy but you just cant enjoy anything or anyone. You just feel empty and lonely. You just cant feel anything – feel love or pleasure..

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Depressing day with me snapping at everyone as usual..

Itz a surprise – I am actually happy today. The best Ive ever been in a while now. I guess itz because I have totally changed my attitude towardz everything and everyone now. I dont care about anything or anyone now. I dont care what they think or do. I just have no love towardz anyone. I still have all those negitive thoughts roaming around but hey – who doesnt?
I just have friendz, but no best friendz. Have no one to talk to about anything. Have nothing to live for but work.
Work is the only reason Im still alive, it is keeping me alive.
43things is the greatest thing ever that has happened and that Ive come across – you get support and people who understandz what you’re going through.

It is becoming worser now. I have no emotionz, no feelingz, dont care about anything, and pretty much sad and upset all the time.
Only answer is is depression – so thou is changing this goal to Beat My Depression.

Thankz everyone for giving me advice and all that.
I wish everyone the best of luck with this goal :D

Many people identify the feeling of being clinically depressed as “feeling sad for no reason”, or “having no motivation to do anything.” A person suffering from depression may feel tired, sad, irritable, lazy, unmotivated, and apathetic. Clinical depression is generally acknowledged to be more serious than normal depressed feelings. It often leads to constant negative thinking and sometimes substance abuse. Extreme depression can culminate in its sufferers attempting or committing suicide.