When you “run a tight ship” and “live like someone’s watching all the time” ... you just feel better.
Along time ago someone gave me this as the definition of integrity and it hit home for me:
“When you do what you’re supposed to do when nobody’s watching.”
I took it to mean “no secrets” ... none whatsoever. No dark areas that you’re afraid someone might uncover. Another way I like to think of it is No Shame.
Shame has been my biggest deterrent. I used to be ashamed of several things …. mainly things I had no control over or things that happened TO me when I was a child. It makes no sense to me now why I* would feel shame for that … but nevertheless, I did. So I carried it around like this great big 50 pound bowling ball and thought I was doing a good job of “hiding it”. Only …. it’s pretty damn hard to hide a 50 pound bowling ball ;o)
Long story short ….. I want to say what I mean and mean what I say and be unafraid to say it …. and unashamed of who and what I am so I have nothing to hide ….
Doing it because … whether anyone else knows or not *YOU know ….