fall in love with someone who is in love with me, too

Well well … its been 2 months 25 days and 13 hours ago that i last spoke to HIM!! Geographicly it was not easy but hey!! LOVE CONCERS ALL! Anyway … before that 2 months and 25 days and 13 hours, there was 9 months of long distance calls! Wait Wait let me start from the beginning lol! We have been friends online for quite a long time (only hi and bye though) Then he came to my country for holiday and i thought what the hell, lets meet up! I remember coming back from work being knackered!! Only looking forward to a nice shower and relaxing on the couch infront of my TV. But what can i say! I am a real push over … so here we go! Quick shower, no make up, wet hair tide back and off we went! LOL i didnt even know he was black waiting in the reception of his hotel for him! Anyway one thing led to another and our quick coffee turned out to last 3 days! I lost my heart completely! All good things come to an end cos i was leaving for Australia for 10 days! For 10 days i ate, sleep, walk,.... this guy! Returning from Australia it was the start of 9 months of long distance calls almost everyday lasting hours! I could be the lowest low and just by hearing from him i was on cloud 9!! This feeling is priceless!! Only if you could put it in a bottle and sell it … Gawd wouldnt I be rich! Anyway … “hi’s” turn into “i miss you’s” very soon and before i could stop myself, i lost my heart! Never did before!! 9 months later, i could remember trembling just sitting next to him in his car! Damn was i a fool for this guy! After touching and holding hands and all those fun stuff, it was “bang” >> “this is confusing cos we only just friend” His words stabbed into me! Alot of tears later, i am sitting here today still waiting for my heart to heal and to trust love again! From now on i dont take chances no more! Never felt like this before and hopefully i will never again! Its not fun at all!! Will not love unless i am being loved!