Procrastination is a way of self sabotage, the way I see it, it’ll never be over. Some how I believe that my views will stick with me for life, but I sure hope I choose a new set of views concerning this rather than sticking it to the last minute doing a half assed (half asked) job. Tsk tsk tsk. ): It’s so depressing. I make myself so angry at… well myself. I’m not self involvd really, otherwise I woulnd’t pay soo much attention toward helping others leaving myself only a bit to spare which ends up in my face because I think “Well, Steph look! It’s SCRUBS! Let’s go get you out of the crazy wiles that go on in your head!” Perhaps not those exact thoughts, but very nearly. I’m so ADD it’s not very easy to get along with… O! I love life… fake it ‘til you make it, right? Ugh. People sure change around others. I wonder if Tyler would say such things in front of Franklin… huh. Well, I have too much on my plate to handle, so to slip out of the madness working on overtime in my brain I decided to write here, thus I will regret this, but not so much, seeing that I will not have assignments done by it’s necessary date. And here I should I ask myself… why must you wait so long to do what you know it necessary. I just want to yell at myself. I can’t even relate to myself that way! I mean… ok to get to the understanding level of others I place myself in their (problimatic) situation, thus a I have a better grasp of what they;re going through, so I can give advice based on that. Usually I understand, esp when I’ve beeen there done that, but it’s ridiculous, because I can’t do that now. Example. Boy I like, Dave, I’m goo-goo-gaa-gaa over him and I know if it were my friend, then I would tell her tobe more confidenet or what not… but I would first say I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN! Because I would know what you would mean. It’s so difficult to admit the crush moreso would it be to talk to him. I mean meeting eachothers eyes… that drives me nuts, imagine actually saying ”...” I don’t think I could. Such a chicken… back to the point. I could say “I UNDERSTAND!” , but when it comes to not doing well in school on purpose or driving horribly on purpose (carelessly)... I CANNOT UNDERSTAND NOR RELATE. It’s horrid, I know. I have to go. bye.
selfsab-I believe I know why now… hmm pictureeessss
