Fall in love

I am surprised at how many people thing sex is love. People seem to think you can’t have love with out sex. How is a marrage going to last on just sex? I personal think there might have to be something more between two people other than a good blow, I have spent alot of time thinking about it and I am willing to apply myself to finding out afew things about love, sex and commitment.I have a hunch…

Man is that a load of bull or what. I can be Idealistic and dreamy at times. Well love is love it grows. I just want it without gaining weight.

the enjoyment of each day within the world that I thought I could not have. Is a wonder, I knew it was something about all this little stuff, I had a feeling it wasn’t the sex that kept everthing going. it was the team work. That is what we are going to work on. foundation a relationship with something that will last, through sickness and rain, poverty, and hopefully one day wealth.

Patrick bought me a ring. we are supose to get married on the 21st of July. I met him in April, I have known him for 3months and he has moved in. i know it’s kind of fast but, I need to change somethings as much as possible. I was in a rut, and bored. I hope it last, this is my first marriage. This is kind of fun. Just jumping into things like this, not worring about what people think.

His name is Patrick and he is so sweet, and a stud and first ( and only) to be the in my in ten years. I like everything about him. even his toes.

Ok now that I have jumped off the cliff. How far down does this rabbit hole go. Love is a puzzle I need to put all of my pieces together, to make it whole. I am extremly happy to be able to try it feels pretty good. A little confusing sometimes, but smooth.

I met a man a few weeks ago. We talk, I invited him over to my house cause I stood him up on a date. I like him, it’s to soon to say I love him but I like him a lot. I evan started to get bitch when I don’t see him. I shocked myself with that one.

That is a hard thing to do. You have to play stupid and ignore a lot of things. Plus day dream of a perfect world inwhich to fall in love in.

I keep forgeting or I just don’t want to remember to. I think the world is to hard to love sometimes and no one really care so. It maybe easier to forget it.