Keep turning negatives into positives

Got food poisoning a couple of days ago from eating at a Chinese buffet. I did mainly have vegetables,not much rice or noodles so I didn’t stray too much from my diet. Turns out the vegetables were the worse. I’ll spare you the details. But the consequence of the incident is that my appetite was halved. I can now stick more strictly to my diet. My problem was that it wasn’t filling enoughh so I felt the need to pig out once in a while…

...It’s just a matter of finding it. I am attempting a body function change. It’s kindov embarrassing so will only open up about it if it works! hope it does, cause it will solve a problem. That didn’t make any sense, did it! Sorry :P

Well, not exactly, it’s still an effort but while thinking about it today, I realised I was honouring this goal at least in 3 ways of late:

1. I’m a summer guy. And winter is dragging again…and there’s been quite a lot of snow considering we normally hardly have any. But I haven’t slowed down, going to the gym, being active despite the weather…actually enjoying the beauty of snow. The pic was taken today at a park near mine.
2. I’m in a new house share and there are some bathroom sharing complications. To get away from them I use the gym’s facilities (it’s not far from the house)
3. There is activity in the house at 5:45 nearly each morning. I can either get vexed about it or take it as an opportunity to return to my early riser mode. I did a bit of the former but switched to the latter.

Yay me!

I’m in my self introspection phase once again.It’s snowing, it’s cold, hibernating season so might as well take the time to reflect (well, any excuse is good enough really!)....

Sooooo, where was I? Yes, NEGATIVITY… that old chestnut. Negativity is like target practice with eyes closed. It’s a choice. You are more likely to hit target your eyes open. But you choose not to because you don’t think you’d hit target anyway and don’t want to see yourself miss either. Ain’t that stupid! Still we do it. I do it.

Case in point:
Went to this interview, got the job although not in the department I was interviewed for. Then I got an email with the shifts I was gonna get. I read it so fast I only noticed the negative: I wasn’t going to get all the shifts I had applied for. But I actually misread it.I thought I was only going to have 3 shifts over 2 months! I realised my mistake in time though (Pheeew). I might as well had read the email with my eyes closed! Err.. hold on …

Anyway, this is what negativity makes you do: you look for the negative so you find it even if you have to make it up!

Man… (or woman) imagine the amount of positive that has been overlooked because we were too busy looking for the negative. How many times have I fired with my eyes closed? I can’t keep doing that can I.
I need to remember that. This is plain stupid. I’ve seen through negativity’s game. Can’t keep letting it cheat me from all the possibilities open to me!!! AAAAAARGH!

Something isn’t quite right. The saga of mishaps continues. Today my plans just got messed up. A cancellation meant I had to reorganize myself. Then I forgot to pick up a book I needed later,then forgot another appointment. Did my books and realized I have received money I’m probably gonna have to reimburse. The only good thing that happebed today is that I managed to write the blog entry I promised.
Actually, there was a surprise today, courtesy of Juneair. I am a dreamer, an INFP, not an ISTP. It makes sense.
Oh, I’m running tonight. I want to run long and hard, have my revenge on today!
Edit: I ran 5 miles that night. I was shattered the day after but mission flipping accomplished! :P

He is very strong. But only if I let him. This is what this one says:
” Whatever happened in the past has to affect your present. Feel bad, feel very bad, history WILL repeat itself”

The answer: No, what happened in the past is for a lesson. But the event is in the past. Re-living it and making yourself sick is pointless, dangerous, toxic, because you are inviting it back into your life.
Operate on a higher level of consciousness. Feed your mind with positive thoughts, surround yourself with positive people, aim at being the best you can be. Limit your time with those people (or thoughts) who bring you down.

SILENCE GREMLIN, I KIIILLL YOUUUUU!

I caught gremlin #1 red-handed. It seems to have different guises. This is in a nutshell what gremlin #1 says:
“Everybody should like me. If they don’t, I must be doing something wrong”

Likeability isn’t a sound basis for self-worth. Don’t waste your time trying to please everyone. Don’t be a demagogue. People will always diss what they don’t understand. You drum to your own beat, sing to your own tune? So be it. As long as you are doing something positive, BE THE BEST YOU you can be.
You can’t make your contribution to the world by being someone you’re not.

SILENCE, GREMLIN…I KILL YOU!!!

...As in “I Need My Own Place”...I sound like a broken record don’t I? That’s because last night, usual noisy housemate was watching a film when I came home, AGAIN. I put my earphones on. Then after the film it sounded like he decided to strum on a guitar. Then he decides to sing! It’s about 11 pm. That’s the last straw so I knock on the floor so he knows he’s overstepped the limit (he is directly underneath me).

Unsurprisingly, the disturbance makes me annoyed and robs me of my sleep. When the sandman finally succeeds in sending me away, I’m brought back by the other housemate running up and down the stairs(he must have been late going to work this morning. It was about 6 am) and the other one wakes up and puts his music on again.

Lately I have been out as long as I could (if you say I’ve been avoiding them, you wouldn’t be wrong)so I can get some peace and quiet when I come home but on the days the noisy housemate is here as opposed to on a night shift, that’s it, I have no chance to have a good night sleep.

Anyway. Rant over. I’m starting to run again on Thursday, 6am. Hopefully I’ll be so tired at the end of the day that I should fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow, no matter how noisy the other 2 are… Well that’s the theory. :|

I’m happier when i’m out of this place. Came late last night expecting to find peace. No chance. One housemate was laughing his head off watching a film. Had to wake up early this morning and lo and behold, he’s up as well,aaaargh. Back to the house tonight there’s noone and there’s been a powercut. I think “great, time for catching up on sleep!” No chance. Housemate comes in, gets on the phone and that’s it. I’m hearing everything. Then power is back on. Now the second housemate comes in and both start talking. They’re like husband and wife those 2.Always nattering all day long. Not the most productive people in the world. Can’t understand how people can waste that long on meaningless chats all the time. And its next to my room so even louder. No point telling them. Tried before, they can’t seem to help it.Yeah. I need my own place.

...make lemonade. Problem is, who buys fresh lemonade nowadays? They’d rather buy Coke and believe a lie. OK, people don’t believe Coke is a medicine any more. But the brand is now in people’s conciousness. Same with cigarettes. They entered the market with claims they were healthy. We got hooked, then the truth came out but we still carried on smoking as a whole. There’s a pattern here isn’t there? We are being duped into embracing the synthetic and unhealthy and vilifying the natural and healthy Mmmhhh…
Oh well, can’t change the world…or can I?