not be upset if I don't have kids

Im OK with it. This time next week I might not be – but I’ve been OK for a few months now really so I thought I’d tick it off the list. At the end of the day, for me, this goal might as well be “Not be upset that I’m not a man” Or “Not be upset that I haven’t won lotto”. It’s something that just isn’t going to happen for us (or highly unlikely anyway), and I have to make sure my life is full and happy without kids. I guess I’m lucky in that the choice has been taken away in a way. It’s not something I can hope to happen and always be disapointed.
I do still get a bit maudling when I see gorgeous babies on the tv – then I get a reality check with a screamer in the supermarket so it all works out :)

Just found out I have PCOS, which isn’t life threatening or anything like that – but it may be difficult for me to have children. Now this is something I’ve never had a particular urge to do. But not wanting children and hearing I probably can’t have children are two different things. I only found out yesterday so I’m not really sure how I feel about it yet. It’s going to get more difficult to conceive the older I get – but I don’t want to try for a baby now “just in case” I suddenly want one in the future! But then what happens if I suddenly have a maternal kick in a few years and I’ve left it to late??

I guess what will be will be and I just have to trust that if it’s meant to happen it will….