fall in love with the right person

.....there are some good men out there. And I know there is one for me. And he may not have all of the “qualifications” that I want…but as long as he is God fearing and has a GOOD heart, that’s all that matters.

Now I’m going to keep living my life and wait on Him. And on God’s timing.

The end. I’m not writing about this anymore until the goal is fulfilled!

Okay, this shit is never going to happen. And I’m just being honest. Not negative. I’m stating a fact.

How do I know? I just do….

But part of me is okay with that.
For now at least.

And what’s with the concept of “falling in love”? I get happiness through so many other realms. Part of me is glad that I can experience and go through life without falling victim to this “falling in love” thing. I enjoy being selfish and living freely without being BOUND to this love shit.

And I don’t know why I’m hatin’ on love. I love love. But I think I’m fed up with feeling as if I HAVE to be IN love. I blame society and I blame myself for being warped into this fantasty “happily ever after” mess. The only REAL love I’ve ever witnessed is the love of God. Because at least you KNOW that will last. Can’t say that ‘bout some man.

[NOTE: Guess it’s one of those days. I’m sure tomorrow I’ll be all about “falling in love” again. Go figure!]

What if I never fall in love? I’m serious….I know I’m only 22 and have a lot more life ahead of me. But really, do I? Life really is NOT guaranteed. I enjoy my life. I’m not complaining. I don’t feel as if I HAVE to have a man or boyfriend but what if…..what if I don’t get the opportunity to fall in love? I only pray that I continue to be content. And not get all wrapped up in this idea of feeling like I HAVE to fall in love. Of course, we as humans all have that desire….but I don’t want to be so caught up in it that I can’t live my life through other realms. Is everyone MEANT to fall in love? I don’t understand…..hmmm.

If and WHEN I do fall in love…[note to self], please don’t give 100% of yourself to any one. It’s okay to love, but it’s NOT okay to give any man all of you. Spiritually, emotionally and defintely not physically. You’re worth more than that.

And that’s real talk.

Not that I’m in any hurry to do this. This was actually something I saw on someone else’s list and it motivated me to add it on mine!