Fall in love

I met someone and have been with him for about two weeks now, and every time we speak he tells me what I mean to him. He makes time to see me as often as possible and is there to listen when I want to talk about nothing.

But I don’t think I’m ready to be with anyone just yet. I like him and when I’m with him it is amazing and I never want it to end, but when I don’t see him … I don’t miss him. I think that is the problem.

How can I want to be with him when we together but not think about him until I get a mail or msg or call from him??? Maybe I’m not allowing myself to fall for him, coz I’m telling myself this isn’t the right time for me. Can I make myself think I don’t like him when I might???

I met someone recently and today I took a chance and spoke to him… but it went no where, we couldn’t even hold a conversation and there was nothing we could talk about. Guess that is just a sign on it’s own, I mean he is good to look at but I can’t look at him forever and not say a word… Or can I??? Lol

Well I’m still on my search for love… Haven’t given up hope yet. But for now I don’t want love, maybe with time but I do want some to talk to and hold my hand when I’m scared or nervous… :)

I’ve been in love before and when it ended it killed me. After that I’ve dated a little and even met someone that really made me happy. But it didn’t last. So know I’m alone again, feeling so sad and rejected.

I want to have a someone to love me and want to be with me so much, but I can’t put my heart at risk any longer. How much can my heart take? How much saddness must I go through to finally be happy? How much more can I handle before losing hope completely?

I want love but have been through so much pain and rejection to never want to love again. I have been promised forever, but that didn’t last. I have been promised happiness but that fell through. Broken promises, heartache and tears are all associated to love. Why does something so beautiful bring such sadness and betrayal?

Yet another failed relationship

I should write a book with all my unfortunate relationships and teary break-ups. I don’t mean to make this sound as a joke but if I wasn’t able to see something funny in each of my heart breaks then I’d be an emotional mess, depressed all the time. But somehow, with each failed relationship although I do lose hope, I never seem to give up on love.

I’m so grateful for that, because the last thing I want is to be one of those girls unhappy with life only because I’m single. I won’t lie, being single is really sad and lonely at times. And I hardly ever see the upside of being alone. But everytime I meet someone new, that butterfly feeling and blossoming of a new romance alost makes being single all those times worth it.

Then the unfortunate break-up. With teary eyes and puffy cheeks and nasty self-doubt. That I could do without. Yet somehow I am still able to smile back at the world and with wide eyes search the horizon for my “Prince Charming”. He is out there. I won’t give up hope…

I want to fall in love now, today. I want to be happy forever and I want someone to love me. But as much as I want it to happen that doesn’t mean it will.

After yet another relationship that didn’t make it off the ground, I finally get it. Love is the most amazing yet confusing thing around. And no matter how much I yearn for it, it can only happen when I find the right person.

And with all my failed relationships, there was never something wrong with me, I just met all the wrong people. “And that is my story and i’m sticking to it” – (Where did I hear that from).

So when love does come around I will be happy that I didn’t settle for someone just so I wouldn’t be alone. And although I have my bad days, days I feel alone or depressed coz I don’t have someone in my life… I always have a better day, eventually…

I saw you the first time when I got on that day.
There was something about the way you looked.
I barely knew you; I’ve only just seen you
But I have to know more.

It’s been five months since I’ve seen you
I finally have the courage… This is the day
This is the day I will meet you for the first time
I smiled and so did you
You did notice me but you are just as shy as I Was

Today you kiss me for the first time
Today you hold me close to you
I am yours and you are mine
I want this forever; I want you forever
You promise me so much
I believe just as much
Today! I fall in love!

Tomorrow…..
Where are you going, what have I done?
What is the reason, where do I go?
You make me feel ugly; you make me feel doubt
I don’t understand, what happens now?

You left me alone; you left me in tears
Where is your love, where are the promises?
You’ve taken my heart; you’ve taken my soul
“I don’t want to hurt you so that’s why I go”
What does that mean?
How can you hurt me more than this, now?

Now I am moving, you are holding me back
I haven’t seen you since but you holding me back
I haven’t heard from you but you are holding me back
Why are you still there? Why can’t you leave?
My head said good-bye but my hearts says don’t leave

(To the one guy who I fell for so deep and long for so much, you have killed my spirit and filled me with doubt. You have hurt me without reason and yet some how I still love you. I want you to go but I don’t want you to leave.
I need you to go and I need you to leave. Goodbye NS. I need my life back and this time there isn’t room for you)

We not in love as yet but everyday we spend together we grow stronger. And when we are apart it makes me realise that he does mean something to me, coz I miss him so much. I learn something new about him all the time and enjoy just being with him.

I know that I must sound like a love sick puppy and annoy alot of people but it’s not about the way he looks or the way he dresses. It’s about the way he makes me feel. He makes me feel special and wanted and needed. He makes me feel complete.

Ad this time it’s not what I want in a guy but what I want in a relationship. I trust him, I can confide in him and I am happy with him.

This guy and I have started spending time together. So I took a chance and don’t regret it at all. I know he likes me and I like him just as much. We get along with each other and enjoy each others company. Also when I kiss him I get “butterflies”. This is the type of guy I could fall in love with. He is amazing and makes me feel special.

I am taking things slow because I don’t want to get hurt but I can’t help the way I feel when he is around. I feel alive and I feel wanted. I haven’t felt like this in a long time and it doesn’t scare me.

I hope that this works out.
Could this be “THE ONE”???

I see this guy almost every day and find myself unusually attracted to him. The way he dresses, the way he just glances at me and especially his voice.

I have no idea who he is but I guess it’s not knowing that intrigues me. But then I always end up at the same question.
“how can I be so attrcted to someone that I don’t even know?”

And now I can’t stop thinking of him. Wondering if there is someone in his life. Wondering if he noticed me or is attracted to me.

I’m really scared of finding out the answers to these question as much as I’m terrified of not knowing.

It’s so weird but as much as I don’t want to be in a relationship right now I do want to feel loved.

I just want someone to love me and to hold me and kiss away all that is wrong after a bad day. I want to feel special and wanted and beautiful the way only a man can make me feel. I want to know that there is someone who wants to be with me and wants to love me and only me.

I want to fall in love all over again but this time I want it to last. So I will wait for when it just feels right but I wish if it could happen soon.

Where is my “Mr. Right”???