Well, i’ve done 38 days of no contact and am defintely better (I even went out on a date..), the thing that really bothers me know his how to get him out of my head, to stop the thoughts about him. I’ve tried telling my mind NO! don’t think about him, but it’s always comfertable to play with your mind and dream that he did call, he does care and it all ends happily ever after. I just really want to find a way to supress these thoughts…:(
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I kind of have the same deal, my Ex and I have a mutual group, the things is that all of my friends know that it’s really hard for me to be around him, so whenever they do stuff with him= I don’t go, and same vise versa, it’s a bit annoying, but they’re my friends and they understand. If it really makes you so uncomfertable- leave when he comes, or ask your friends to maybe go out with him.
Whatever happens, they’re your friens too- he has no right to make you feel uncomfertable around them.
Good Luck!Tell us how it goes
Why do i let him get to me like this? I’m so tired of being depressed and crying all the time. My coldplay X&Y CD has never been played so many times over such a short period.
I just want to let go- but every time I think i’ve suceeded, it all comes rushing back to me and I just hate myself, him. my friends, my life and the world.
Maybe it has to do tht he didn’t call on my b-day and it would have been our one year anniverserary yesterday.
For some reason it seems easier for men just to cut relationships and never look back.
Is this true? (for all you guys out there)....
I’m kinda proud of myself. My ex’s best friend (and roomie) and I are really good friends . So today he (the best friend) came back from overseas and I picked him up at the airport- proceeding to drop him off near their apartment. Since he had no cell he used mine to call my ex and let him know that he had arrived. Listening earlier on to a conversation that they from a different cellphone, it seemed like he wasn’t going to help him, but now that he knew that I was there, he said he would come and help with the suitcases. The old me would have hung around under the pretense of helping my friend, in order to just see my ex and maybe try to do some face to face talking.
Instead, I drove away and met a friend for dinner.
Good for me :)
So, today was my first day of vacation, but I was feeling sick so i just lay in bed- and thought about him. ALOT. I spent it lying in bad and thought about the memories I have from that room (and bed) of him. I missed so much the feeling when someone just lies next to you and holds you in their arms. I think I’d feel better if at least he tried to call me, talk to me- but nada. It’s my b-day on Friday- I wonder if he’ll call.
(So at least i’ll have the option of not answering … ;))
Had such a shitty day, went out with friends and just starting crying from frustration and knowing that the one person that I really want to talk to and share my feelings and life with needs to not be a part of my life any more.
Yesterday I went to this fair where my Ex and I went a week b4 we got together. It was so strange looking at all the happy couples- and a year ago i was exactly the same… Oh well.
It’s been 5 days of 0 contact, and today I spent a good portion of the day thinking about him , but just now I opened my e-mail and it was full of mails from people who love me and respect me. So what do I need him for?
It’s like I know that if I call him- I will be dissapointed, he will not give me the attention that I need. But I still have this need for him to confirm that he still adores me, that I am still important to him, even though he stopped respecting me a long time.I know that he is wrong for me and that he will not make me happy= but howdo you let go to your first love, the first man who touched you, your best friend, the person that you thought you’ld spend the rest of your life with?
I didn’t speak to him for six days and then he answered a mass e-mail I sent , saying that i am incredible and not to hate him.
But when I call him he is so cold,so non committing.
So, I called him today, try to talk things over again, once again lost all my dignity and self respect, and promised never to call again. G-d help me,I really don’t want to.
What makes us hurt ourselves time after time. Lean on a past that is gone.