Stop being depressed

well, I have been doing really good. Im taking anti depressants, and Im really not very depressed any more. I also left my husband, and I feel like a load has been lifted off me! Im like 100 times happier, even though I have no money, have to move, am having issues with my daughter…none of it really gets me down, because I know and feel in my heart that I am and will continue to be much happier! Life is great and Im loving it! When I look back on some of my goals and some of the stuff that really upset me…wow! Things are alot different…in just 4 months my whole life has changed …for the better!

Well, after all my stressing out about being put on drugs…My appointment isnt even untill the middle of January! Man, and I could really use some anti-depressants around Christmas! Maybe I will somehow be cured by then, and wont need to go on any medication! I thought I was gonna have an anxiety attack just when she told me I should be on anti-anxiety medication! But seriously, just talking to a counselor is making me feel a whole lot better, I really get alot of crap off my chest!

Well, today, my counselor told me she thinks I am indeed “manic depressive” oh joy! I have been saying this for years! I was like…”duh!” So she is refering me to the psychiatrist…who will then prolly want to put me on drugs! Anybody out there with bi-polar or manic depression? What drugs are you on? and do they work?

well, I dont know how well it went…I sat there and cryed most of the time. I have always felt that its a waste of time to go to counseling, because its just like crying on your friends shoulder. Although she did “prescribe” me an art therapy project…that I liked doing, and I think it put some things in perspective for me. We will see how this goes!

I called a counselor. I have an appointment this week! Yay for me!