Be less shy

I’ve already gone really far with my goal even before I signed up to this website.
So October of this year I made a list of things do do during the October term holiday. This was my list.
1) Leisure Centre. (To get my lesiure card. This meant that i had to talk to the receptionist.) Therefore being able to go to the gym.
2) Find and go to Birmingham University Libary. (My teacher told me to go and get imformation from here and so I first had to find it. I had to phone Birmingham Government libary because I didn’t know where else to look. They told me to go to the website. Then when I finally got the imformation. I had to phone centro so i could go on the right bus to the libary. When I finally got there I had to talk to the libarians for imformation.)
3) I also went to the Blood Donor in the city centre. Therefore meaning i had to talk the nurse and Doctor.

All of this meant I had to do the things that scare me the most.
1) Talking to people.
2) Talk on the phone, I used to really hate that. It used to scare me but it was really easy.
3) Ask questions.
4) Find places on my own without the assiatance of people I know.

The thing about not being shy i suppose is throwing yourself into situation where it is impossible not to get into contact with other people.

My friend left me. We were both shy and I guess we relied on each other to be the other ones voice. We never really tried to make friends outside of our group. Whenever I tried to make friends she was pretty unwelcoming. She left and this made everything worst. But around Ocober i realised I couldn’t live like this having no life and getting upset so i decided to do something else. I started going to thelesiure centre which complies with my fitnesss dream. I also started doing little things to help me become more comfortable around people.

That is how i felt when i left school, after all the taunting the name calling and the putting down I’d put up with I couldn’t believe i was finally free. Free to be who I am, free to speak my mind. But then trying to fit in to college I realised that I was able to comunicate with my peers. This was the most discouraging thing, maybe even more so then the bullying. They had taken away everything. My confidence lay in tatters and all I could do was sit in lessons, never putting my hand up and just about breathing. People would come up to me and talk to me and I could barely nod. I felt like I was being constantly judged like being on a stage with a light shining on me alone and everyone making fun. Becoming paronoid that people hated me. Also judging people before I get to know them, victims and bullies. I thought as soon as i left school the pain would all be over but it was just beginning. With the need to express myself and no ability to do so I became withdrawn and depressed, constantly crying. But then something happened.