So I thought that I would be fulfilling this goal this year, but… still no…
I signed up for a dance class at my old studio because my boss had told me it wouldn’t be an issue to give me an extra half hour at lunch to run to the studio for class… The day after registration he decided no that was too much time for me to be gone and said I either lose my “promotion” or give up what I want…
I’m having a lot of issues staying at the library right now…
1.) The biggest issue is the pay. I’m getting promoted and a raise and I’m only going to be making $8 an hour (and only getting 15 hours a week). I’ve been at the library for about six years. My sister’s boyfriend makes more than me and he’s a cart boy at Tops…
2.) I miss dance. I miss performing… Musicals, singing, dancing… And I’m asking myself am I going into the right field… Am I going to be happy giving that up for the rest of my life? I’ve been looking at the Disney audition schedule and thinking “Damn, I want to do that.” But then I think “Oh well that’s not smart. How will that help me in the future.” I always pick the safe path and I’m scared that I’m going to regret it in the future….
And I want to dance dammit… And it just is not working out in my favor this year…
